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2011-07-20T10:30:00.002+08:00

书意，我真的很高兴认识你！！！

不管我们以什么关系，还是什么身份，你都对我很好！！！

你会开导不开心的我。。。

你会想办法让我开心。。。

你会让我知道怎么做是对的。。。

真的很谢谢你！！！

不管未来我们会怎样。。。

我都不希望失去你这位朋友！！！哥哥的！！！

林书意！！！爱死你了！！！！！！！！！

在这我会有很大的勇气，说我爱说的话！写我爱写的事！！！

我可以很大声的说出来（写出来），因为你不会看到！！！

加油！加油！！加油！！！

我知道你很担心某些事情，不过闯到桥头自然直！！！

现在好好的享受吧！！！

2011-07-13T09:20:00.002+08:00

7月7号。。。

我认识了你。。林书意。。。

又帅气。。心又好。。。

很感谢老天爷让我认识你 ^_^

到美国快5年了。。。

很多时候真的觉得很无助。。。很难受。。。

有什么事既不能告诉家人。。也不能告诉同事。。。

我很庆幸认识了你。。。

短短的的6天。。。我很开心

虽然你不在我身边，可是你陪我信息。。。

我知道你很忙。。。也很感谢你肯陪我。。。

我已经快习惯你陪我了。。。

我不知道。。哪天你有了“她”。。。

你可否还会把我当朋友。。当妹妹的。。。

不管未来怎样，谢谢你陪我。。。

打从心里感激你。。。

书意，谢谢你！

2011-06-18T10:29:00.004+08:00

好久没上blogger了。。。

这阵子发生了好多好多事。。。

开心不开心都有。。。

换工作。。。不到2个星期就辞职。。。

新工作比我想象中还要来得更辛苦更多压力。。。

下了这个决定。。。我真的不知道是对还是错。。。

太多事要考虑。。。

是我太笨。。还是我不管坚强。。。

真的不知道。。。

爸妈大哥二哥。。对不起让你们担心。。让你们失望了。。。

我没有想到我会是如此的软弱。。。

我以为我可以坚持下次。。。

可是。。我做不到。。。

我太没用了。。。

对不起。。。

有时候真的不知道我下的每个决定是否是对的。。。

一旦下了就无法回头。。。

没有后悔可言。。。

很多朋友告诉我。。我给新工作太少时间了。。。

大家都告诉我。。至少一个月的时间相处才做决定。。。

可是。。。我却坚持要辞职。。。

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

我真的不知道。。。。。。。。。。

天啊。。。

我到底下的决定是不是对的。。。。T_T

2011-04-04T07:45:00.005+08:00

这几天心里很烦。。。。你的影子一直出现在我脑海里。。。每天都会看到你。。。每天上班，我的眼睛一定会一直在寻找你。。。我其实好想问你“为什么。。为什么你回来。。为什么你申请回来这？。。。” 我真的好想知道。。。你对我的好。。我很开心。。。可同时我又不知道你对我的关心，照顾，帮忙是出自朋友之情还是。。。我会一直胡思乱想。。。你离开我这家店了，为什么还申请回来呢？。。。你若没回来。。那我的感情就会慢慢的埋在我心里。。。可现在全乱了。。。我。。到底该怎么做。。。 CJ。。我真的很喜欢你。。。

2011-03-26T04:15:00.004+08:00

今天的心情真的很糟。。。
很不开心。。。

第一是因为大姨妈到访。。。
肚子疼得要命。。。

第二是因为CJ突然说明早他的7点上班。。。
也就是说他不能载我回家。。。
单独的时间又没了。。。

第三是因为CJ突然说mary下星期可能回来了。。。
要是mary回来。。。那我就不能在他那上班。。。
那我们就没了单独聊天的时间。。。
那我就没了hour。。。

天啊！！！
这是怎么一回事啊！！！
怎么都来得那么突然啊！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

2010-06-14T03:49:00.002+08:00

今天接到了很不好的消息。。。。
他。。。进院了。。。。
而且还在ICU。。。。
怎么会搞得那么严重。。。。
现在很担心。。。。。
你要好起来啊！！！！！！！
下回会去还要跟你见面的！！！！！！！

今天大约9:45am接到terry的msn。。。。
她说问起我认识alan多久了。。。。
问我了不了解你。。。。
问我知道你是否生病。。。。
问我你到底得了什么病。。。。
说什么她已经知道你得什么病可是又要从我口中知道你的什么病。。。。。
责怪我不告诉她。。。。
说我自私。。。。
说我没顾虑到她。。。。
haiz。。。我是不在乎她骂我怪我的。。。。
可是我真想知道，你到底有没有告诉她。。。。
她说你连要死的那一刻都不说。。。。
既然你没说我想我也没必要说吧。。。。
这是你的私事。。。。
我怎么能说出来呢。。。。。。

terry说你现在还在ICU。。。
全身都是针。。。。
很严重。。。。。
你到底是怎么了。。。。
那种普通的病怎么会搞得那么严重啊！！！
我真的好想知道你现在怎样了！！！！！
有谁可以帮我啊！！！！！！！
我在美国要怎么知道你的状况啊。。。。。。。。。
总不能一直问terry吧。。。。。。
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。。。。。。。。。。。

你一定要好起来，听到吗！！！！
我下回回去还要跟你见面！！！！
我还要有事没事的气你！！！！
你一定要好起来！！！！！！！！！

菩萨，请你保佑他快快好起来。。。。。。

真的不希望他有事。。。。。。。。

2010-06-07T10:05:00.003+08:00

感觉好久没写部落格了。。。。
这几个礼拜好多是发生。。。。
最不开心，最不爽，最伤心的事就是工作。。。
我讨厌工作的同事。。。
全都是表面功夫。。。
说一套一套。。。。。。
什么seniority的，全是废话。。。
一个星期比一个星期少hour。。。
16个hour per week。。怎么生活啊。。。。。。。。
还有你个二头蛇。。。
你说的每句话都是废话！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
我恨死这样的生活啊！！！！！！！！！！！

上个星期小学同学有了个聚会。。。
来了好多人。。。可我却无法出席。。。。
好想念他们。。。
大家都有了各自的变化，当然也有些一点都没变的同学。。。
女的越来越美丽，男的越来越handsome。。。。
真的还想他们。。。
你们大家还好吗？？？
很高兴振祥created了个‘慕义中校96-01毕业同学’的group
好让大家保持联络。。。真的谢谢你啊 ^_^

这两天家里有了个小小的trip。。。
第一天到OCEAN CITY-位于马里兰州的一个很famous的海边。。。
早上3:30am就起床准备，大约5:30am出发。。。
驾了足足3个半小时的车程才到达目的地。。。
8:30am达到，当时还早但那的人不算少也不算多。。。
我们足足逛了3个小时的海边小店也晒了足足3个小时的太阳。。。
那天的气候超热的。。。。
从29th street逛到5th street再从5th street逛回29th street。。。。。。
天啊。。。。。。。。
幸运的是当天有个AIR SHOW
所以我们又逗留了2个小时看show同时又晒了2个小时的太阳。。。。
超级热的。。。我真不懂为何美国人那么爱晒太阳。。。。。。。。
然后我们离开ocean city。。。
一路上我们到了家餐厅吃午餐(可吃的都是早餐)
然后就一路开车到另一个海边-REHOBOTH BEACH
逛了大约半个小时后就开车到了TARGET OUTLET
也逛了不是很久就离开了。。。
因为大家都很累了。。。
回家的路途也用了将近3个小时半的时间才到家。。。
呼。。。。真是个蛮累的trip

第二天就到FREDERICK逛。。。。
驾了将近1个小时的车程吧。。。。
到了那就先去吃午餐(可吃的也是早餐)
然后就到FREDERICK TOWN CENTER逛一逛。。。。
逛了足足2个小时吧。。。
那儿的风景挺不错的。。。。。。
然后就到附近的Wal-mart,Kohl's
大约6:30pm我们离开了那。。。
回到家也7:30pm了。。。。
2天的offday就这样byebye了。。。。

2天的trip得到的就是-把自己晒得黑黑的。。。。。
这次的trip还真的很累。。。。。。。。

2010-04-09T03:20:00.002+08:00

今天--4月8号。。。
对大家来说或许是没什么特别的日子。。。
可对我来说。。。今天会是我难过的日子。。。。

今天一大早醒来，看了下手机。。。
erm。。。got 1 sms is from irene.....
so i open......and tat massage let me feel v v v v v v sad........

这封信息让我非常非常的惊讶，非常非常的悲哀，非常非常的难过。。。
看到信息的那一刻。。。。
我整个人呆了。。。
真的被吓了一跳。。。。
“你还记得我们以前班上的彩云吗？她已经过世了！”
真的被吓着了。。。。
问了irene是怎么回事，
“彩云是在今天的早上跳楼过世了。”
irene说她--跳楼了。。。。。。。。
怎么会跳楼了。。。。
好好一个人怎么会跳楼了！！！
这信息把我给吓呆了。。。

彩云
她是位好动，活跃的人
她。。。怎么会跳楼。。。。
没有人知道，她到底为了什么而跳楼。。。。

彩云
还记得我们同班了2年
虽然我们的友情不是那么的浓厚
但毕竟一起同班了2年
多少还是会有那么点友情的存在。。。
接收到你的死讯时
真的怀疑是不是我看错了。。。。
再度确定了你的事后
我真的很伤感。。。。
再不知道任何原因下。。我失去了一位朋友。。。。

彩云
你的笑容是多么的甜美
你的笑声是多么的动听
如今
你的笑容、你的笑声永永远远不会在看到，不会再听到。。。
它们消失了。。。可他们永永远远的会留在我们的心里。。。。

彩云,一路走好。。。
彩云，安心的走吧。。。
愿菩萨保佑你。。。

我们永远都会记得你。。。。

2010-04-08T10:49:00.002+08:00

haiz。。。怎么这几个礼拜的hour cut 的那么厉害啊。。。。。。。
从35个小时cut到23个小时而已。。。。
要怎么生存啊。。。。。。

tis week i been working at HBC for 2 days le....
2 days aso is fronting..........
boring.......
tired......
alone fronting........
front for 4 hours............
really v boring..............

today is bernie working last day b4 his surgery......
sherri and bernie......both of they will be off for 3-4 weeks......
only carol at the pharmacy........
nobody can support me ler.....
am i still gonna hav hour without sheeri and bernie support.........
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!no hour=no money
no money means can't buy or do anythings i wan....................
haiz.............

你的出现。。。已经开始打扰我的思想了。。。。。
怎么办。。。。不想再被你影响了。。。。。。。。。。

ntg to blog le.......
haiz........my life really v boring................................

2010-04-04T11:18:00.003+08:00

today weather is so good
so we plan to Washington DC 看樱花
今年的樱花开得不是很美
也许该说是气候导致樱花凋谢得很快。。。

今天大约1点
我们集聚在叔叔家
然后婶婶在我们下DC找叔叔

到达DC已经快1.45pm
then we go to pray.
around 3.00pm we when to cherrybosem
walk around 2 miles (almost 4km)
and tk pic.....

at there it hav a lot of baby and dog.......
omg......it's just like.........baby and dog show..........

then after 6.30pm we when to makan......
arrived is alrd 10.30pm liao..........

my offday is gone........
time pass v fast.............

2010-04-03T10:42:00.003+08:00

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
这几天的运气很糟。。。。
感觉相当的遭！！！！！！

昨天来了个顾客
尽投诉些有的没的。。。
投诉些2个礼拜前的事。。。
说我们的service very bad
and the girl that service her hav a v bad attitude......

but i'm de only 1 who's know what happen
事情是这样的。。。
about 2 weeks ago,
when 1 working and i received a call from customer (mrs bigelow)
me:Giant pharmacy,can i help you?
mrs bigelow :hi,i'm very upset about my son prescription.
me:what is your son name?
mrs bigelow:his name is XXX.i call in for refill 2 weeks ago and Dr have been fax to giant pharmacy 3 times.i have no idea why giant pharmacy didn't get it.
me:let me check it.....erm...i check my computer but it didn't show any record that Dr have fax for us.
mrs bigelow:what it that mean!!!!!(she start scuming)u need to check ur fax meshine!!!the Dr alrd send 3 times!!!can you call the Dr or what can u do for my son presciption!!!!!!he need it!!!!!!!
me:mam...
mrs bigelow:can i speak to the pharmisct?!!!
me:the pharmisct is helping the customer now.
mrs bigelow:who am i speak with now?
me:i'm a technician.i can fax again to the Dr for u if u wan......
mrs bigelow:the Dr get ur fax and alrd fax it back 3 times!!!!!!
me:mam!!!!we didn't receivedd anything from Dr office!!!!!anyway i can fax again for u.
mrs bigelow:can u call the Dr!!!!!!
me:normally the Dr want us to fax it but i'm gonna call the Dr for u.
mrs bigelow:ok,thanks.
现在又来投诉！！！
不过没人知道她说的那位性格超差的人就是我。。。
我真的不懂那些顾客这么就那么不明白我没的立场！！！
永远只会要求我们做着做那的！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

昨天被投诉，今天有差点把公司给毁了。。。。。。
今天拿着食物到休息室去烘热。
怎知刚烘，microware get fire.........
当时还真的白我给吓死了。。。。。。。。
急的把食物拿出来，可火还是在烧。。。。。
只好那旁边的书一直打一直得在打。。。
终于火免了。。。。。
真的把我吓死了！！！！！

my luck really v bad............
haiz...........
when i tell my dad,he say i should tk more attention when i did anythings......
bcoz tis yr my luck not tat good.......
now i believe le..........
really v bad............
hope evrything will be ok ba.............

2010-03-29T10:57:00.002+08:00

这是今年第二次blogger吧。。。。
想念的心好事会有可我还是得面对实事。。。。。
虽然早就接受了我所做的决定。。。。
可却因为上一阵子的思念，那痛苦又再次闯进我的心。。。。

wat should i write now.....
hmm...let me think......
maybe i should start with my jobs.....
the hour been cut alot......
not only technician hour get cut...even pharmisct hour also get cut.....
but at least they still can mantian they hours.....
but me.....is kind hard..........
plus the stupid sa-il.....
i duno wat happen with you....
is not my false....i didn't do anything wrong with you
y...y u always wan to 针对me......
bum my hours.......
treat me bad.....
and do ntg during ur work day.......
leave all the jobs for me do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz..........
老天爷。。。。lets the game game over please..........
i can't afford play game with him anymore...........
政治！！！everything also is politi!!!!!!!!!!
stupid idiot things...........

and tat italian lady tooooooooooooo
wat u want?!!!support me or support him!!!!!!!
when u argue with him or u scare him then u will support me
but when u think about urself...u try to keep him at our store..........
wat u really want????wan him stay at our store or wan him tranfer?!!!!!!
if u wan keep sa-il at our store then u give him UR hours!!!!!!!!!
dun let him bum my hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need money!!!!!!!!

haiz.........
现实生活真的不好受。。。。。。
不管是爱情，亲情，生活，工作。。。。没有一样好受。。。。
同时也会为了很多事情而烦恼。。。。。
当你有你要的东西后，你还是会有烦恼。。。。
当你没有你想要的东西是，你也会觉得烦恼。。。。。。。。
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
生活真的。。。。。真的很烦。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

今天就写到这吧。。。。
feel like ntg to write le.......
aso feel like...i duno wat i write wat i trying to say............
haiz.................mama miya.................T_T

2010-02-28T10:54:00.004+08:00

我宝贝的blogger,
好久没update你了。
这期间也发生了好多事。。。
可却没有那股想到bloogger大写一通的感觉。。。

从上回到现在已经有超过6个月没update了吧。
有好多好多事发生。。。
8月我生日，我的boss-Bernie买了一个大蛋糕给我还唱生日歌给我呢。。。
好开心。。。 ^_^
12月下了冬天的第一场雪。。。下了3天3夜哦。。。
然后1月-2月也连续下了好几场雪。。期间下了场60年来最大的一场雪。。。

2月-农历新年的到来，可在美国都不会有感觉到新年的气氛。。。。
今天已是农历十五。。。时间过得好快。。。

今天-02-27-2010
跟wendy sms了好久，突然就说起了'他'
wendy说我伤你太深了，她说的没错。。。
我确实伤你太深了。。。
当初很后悔自己怎么那么笨做了那样的选择。。。
说真的，我真的很爱你。。。你一直都很疼我、爱我、呵护我。。甚至包容我的无理取闹。。。我不知道为什么自己会要求分手。。。

回家后就上网看了以往我们的“故事”。。。
好多好多的回忆。。。
甚至都看到流眼泪。。。
好多你我的回忆。。。
还记得你那年的生日，我亲手为你制作的礼物。。。还有我们居然闹了不愉快的事。。。
还一起计划我回国后该怎么度过。。。
我回国到USM跟你见面。。。
那是我真的有股很怕见到你。。。不是因为我们已经分手而是。。我竟然会觉得害羞。。。
不知道为什么。。。我跟你见面时，我真的整个脸都很烫。。。很害羞再跟你单独在一起。。。
我知道当时你一定很伤心。。。我很快就离去。。。
我是真的很怕在跟你再聊下去。。。因为我怕我会在你面前露出些奇怪的表情。。。
我想你都不知道吧。。。
可这一切都过去了。。。
说什么都没用了。。。这已成了回忆。。。
我真的。。。真的好想哭。。。
有你的陪伴真的是一件非常非常幸福的事。。。
能够认识你是我的福气。。。

我知道你不会再到我的blogger来看。。。
可我想说的是：我真的很爱你。。。大笨蛋，我真的很爱你。。。
是我选择了放弃。。。
是我选择伤害你。。。
我。。。对不起你。。。
我无话可说。。。
曾经几何时我很怕就怎样失去你。。。
可是我知道你现在有个很爱很爱的人。。。
我知道你现在很幸福。。。
我祝福你们。。。~_~。。。

wendy,就如你说的，everythings is over....i will let it go....
but sometime memory will juz came to my mind....
they will make me feel upsad...........
i really want to cry.......
why i'm so stupid!!!
why i'm so bad!!!!
why i wan to hurt someone tat really love me really care about me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so stupid...............[T_T]

2009-09-02T10:05:00.002+08:00

09/01/2009---岂有此理的一天！！！！！！

12.00pm上班。刚到，那个超级大笨蛋（Sarah）要拿break。然后今天有$75 000的order！！！
30 min later，那个笨蛋才大摇大摆地走回来！！！！！$75 000的order，自己一个人放！！！！！！
$75 000的order！！！$75 000的order 有超过200样的药物！！！！！！
然后那个笨蛋can't take care the counter!!!!!!我还得办她！！！还得接电话！！！！！！
我一个人要做几个人的工作啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！妈的！！！超不爽的！！！
大约2.30pm，$75 000的order终于放完了！！！！

然后我们Pharmacy的千金小姐到了，可却不是马上上班！！！！
还拉着Sail走来走去！！！妈的！！！你们若不上班就去punch out!!!!!!!!不要白领薪水！！！！！

4.30pm，Guest（other store employee）到了。
可却让我跟生气！！！！！！
Sherri，你到底请他来是当clerk还是当tech？？？！！！
你若请他来是当tech那就请你请你的千金小姐回家！！！！！！！！！！妈的！！！！！！！
我一个人的做2人份的工作！！！！！！你更好不用请Guest来！！！！！！！！
他来当Tech，然后千金小姐坐在那儿白领薪水！！！！
而我的做得像个疯婆一样！！！！！
薪水有比我高却什么都不做！！！！！！
岂有此理！！！！*#@$%*#@$%*#@$%*#@$% 妈的！！！！！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Paiseh...三字经都出来了......

2009-07-05T22:42:00.002+08:00

4th of july.....
unlucky day....
eye get hurt....

in the morning of 4th of july....
me and my family when to DC (Washington DC) to celebrate 4th of july....
around 12.30 noon time something goings in my eye....
i keep rinse my eye...
after we back from DC...we when to Harris Terter pharmacy ask pharmicst to recomment some eye drops for me and she recomment me use eye wash to wash my eye......
but after i wash my eye...
its look like nothing help with the eye wash....
and my tears keep coming....

around 7.30pm...
my dad call health provide to help me find a Dr. .....
bcoz is 4th of july so most of the Dr office didn't open....
finally we find it but the promble is we need to get an appoinment......
so we go to see Dr around 10.40pm....

when i reach Dr office...
i need to fill up all info...bcoz is new pt....
the nurse call me wait in the room for Dr...
after 15 min later...the nurse come to get my high blood pressure test....
then another 10 more min....
the Dr FINALLY come in....
she ask me some question...
then wan me lie down so tat she can check my eye...
she instill a eye drops and some yellow colour drops....
den use a light to check my eye...
she say my eye get 'mo cha" by something....

so she say the nurse will wash my eye and apply some eyes antibioti in my eye and peds my eye....
so....the whole night i become a 'hai dao'.....
after done all work...i go out and wait for the Rx...
when the clerk call me...
its mean i need to pay the fee.....=_="
the total of the fee is US DOLLAR $198.00 dollar........
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so mahal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
almost is my 1 week pay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but lucky is my dad hav insurance......lucky......

so today i need to go to pharmacy to get my medication....
how much it gonna chg me...i hav no idea...............
anyway....if i pay and my eye getting well den i will pay.....
hope it get well soon....

Happy UNLUCKY Day............=_="
hahaha................................................

2009-05-28T10:49:00.002+08:00

blog...my blogger....
how long i didn't been here le....
since feb until now....
i'm so lazy to update my blog....

this few month....
no much stuff happen....

last few week...
i get a suprise from u...
but for me it have been no suprise...
if 2++ year ago u tell me tat....i may..i may stay with u...
but now....it hav been unpossible stuff le....
time gone...everything hav been alrd gone...
don't get up sad or regret after everything gonne......

last saterday....
unlucky and lucky day
unlucky is...my apartment get fire....
but lucky is...my house is safe....
thanks god....

since last month....
we hav been start looking house....
plan to moved....
but is v tired for looking house.......
its really tired....
when it gonna stop.....
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

last night i received email from my best friends....
he tell me they got gathering.....
i'm so jealous about tat....
i hope to attend tat gathering too....
but...i can't..........
so sad.......
thanks steven,thanks for sending me pic even i can't open....
but i really v happy....
bcoz u share with me........
thanks ^_^

day past by day.....

every day doing the same thing.......

when my life will become more different.......

who...who gonna help me....

who...tell me....who........

2009-02-21T12:06:00.002+08:00

life...
wat is life...
i repeat and repeat and repeat to ask myself...
WAT IS LIFE!!!!!
i been live for almost 20 years le...
i also duno wat is life...
who can tell me...
is hard to live her...
no friends...no life...no enjoy...
is kind like let myself to having a terrible life at here...
i hate u!!!i hate u all!!!i hate my life!!!!!!
wat can i do...

day past by day...
new year is past...
chinese new year is past...
even valentine day also past le...
but my life like shit!!!!
my life like jail!!!!!!
i feel like i can't breath anymore...
is really v hard...
watever i done i also pressure....
hate tis kind of life!!!!!!!

i hope to hav friends...
i hope to hav bf...
i hope to hav someone really know wat i'm thinking wat i wan!!!!!!
i miss the time tat gathering with my friends at malaysia...
i miss all my momery at malaysia...
i hav friends around me...
i do really miss...

blogger...
u r de place let me cry...
let me write watever i wan...
scolding ppl...crying here...happy.sad.mad.angry.
is really good to have u...
here is de only place i can "calala" about wat i face...
thx,blogger.

2009-01-25T00:54:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY ^_^

2009-01-12T11:02:00.003+08:00

so fast...
today alrd 01-11-09...
come to usa alrd 2 year++ le...
boring ahhhhhhhh....

BUT...i'm so luckly...
i work at Giant Pharmacy...

last friday...
is my happy day...
i can't go to working bcoz i didn't hav driver..
but i'm so luckly is i hav laura(my good tenchnician teacher)
luckly is she come to driver me...
hoho ^_^
is quite fun and happy she driver me ^_^
she is de first person driver me after i arrived usa ^_^

new year new wish...
wat is my new wish???
i hav no idea...
who can tell me......

2009-01-03T10:55:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!!!!!!
time fly so fast...
its alrd 2009 le...
day past by day...
haiz...

the first day of 2009...
me,my family and uncle alex femily go to outlet at Hasgetown...
we shop whole day..
start from 10 am to 5 pm...
quite long...haha...
we shop..G.A.P,TOMMY,IZOD,LEWIS,COACH,GUEST,NIKE,ADIDAS...
more more more...

i buy 1 jacket at IZOD..
its really nice..
i like it..but is very mahal too...
very lucky is it hav discount ^_^ 50%+50%
hehe... ^_^
tis is de second stuff i get

before 2009..

i get 1 stuff too ^_^

that is nokia N95 ^_^

so happy..hehe ^_^

tis is my first handphone i get it at USA ^_^

tis few week i get wat i wan..

but tis few week is very tired...

work too many hour...

very very tired...

haiz...

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIEND AND FAMILY ^_^

2008-12-13T04:22:00.002+08:00

*+~感人的故事~+*
不要跟你所在乎的人 ~ 嘔氣太久~~會讓你一輩子都後悔的!!
疼惜您所擁有的珍藏，追尋您所期盼的夢想-----這是個真實的故事
[蘆荻口述 / 連淑香整理]

一個個無情的誤解，打亂了幸福的腳步。當命運的死結終於用代價打開，一切都為時已晚。

接婆婆來家安度晚年﹐結果卻背離我們的初衷。
結婚二年後﹐先生跟我商量把婆婆從鄉下接來安度晚年。
先生很小時父親就過世了﹐他是婆婆唯一的寄託。
婆婆一個人扶養他長大﹐供他讀完大學。'含辛茹苦'這四個字用在婆婆的身上﹐絕對不為過！

我連連說好﹐馬上給婆婆收拾出一間南向帶陽台的房間﹐ 可以曬太陽﹐養花草什麼的。
先生站在陽光充足的房間﹐一句話沒說﹐卻突然舉起我在房間裡轉圈﹐在我張牙舞爪地求饒時﹐先生說﹕"接咱們媽去。"
先生身材高大﹐我喜歡貼著他的胸口﹐感覺嬌小的身體隨時可被他抓起來塞進口袋。
當我和先生發生爭執而又不肯屈服時﹐先生就把我舉起來﹐在腦袋上方搖搖晃晃﹐ 一直到我嚇得求饒。
這種驚恐的快樂讓我迷戀。

婆婆在鄉下的習慣一時改不掉。
我習慣買束鮮花擺在客廳裡。
婆婆後來實在忍不住﹕'你們娃娃不知道過日子﹐買花幹什麼？又不能當飯吃！'
我笑著說﹕'媽﹐家裡有鮮花盛開﹐人的心情會好。'
婆婆低著頭嘟噥。
先生就笑﹕'媽﹐這是城裡人的習慣﹐慢慢的﹐你就習慣了。'
婆婆不再說什麼﹐但每次見我買了鮮花回來﹐依舊忍不住問花了多少錢。
我說了﹐他就'嘖嘖'咂嘴。
有時﹐見我買大包小包的東西回家。
她就問這個多少錢那個多少錢﹐我─如實回答﹐她的嘴就咂的更響了。
先生擰著我的鼻子說﹕'小傻瓜你別告訴她真實價錢不就行了嗎？ '

快樂的生活漸漸有了不和諧的聲音。
婆婆最看不慣我先生起來做早餐。
在她看來﹐大男人給老婆燒飯﹐哪有這個道理？
早餐桌上﹐婆婆經常陰著一張臉﹐我裝做看不見。
婆婆便把筷子弄得叮噹亂響﹐這是她無聲的抗議。
我在少年宮做舞蹈老師﹐跳一整天舞已夠累的了。
早晨暖洋洋的被窩﹐ 我不想扔掉這惟一的享受。
於是﹐我對婆婆的抗議裝聾作啞。

婆婆偶爾願意幫我做一些家務﹐但她一做我就更忙了。
比如﹐她把用過的垃圾袋通通收集起來﹐說等攢夠了賣廢塑料﹐搞得家裡到處都是廢塑料袋；
她捨不得用洗潔精洗碗﹐為了不傷她的自尊﹐我只好偷偷再洗一遍。
一次﹐我晚上偷偷洗碗被婆婆看見了﹐她'啪'的一聲摔上門﹐趴在自己的房間裡放聲大哭。
先生左右為難﹐事後﹐先生一晚上沒跟我說話﹐我撒嬌﹐耍賴﹐他也不理我。
我火了﹐ 問他﹕'我究竟哪裡做錯了？'
先生瞪著我說﹕'你就不能遷就一下﹐碗再不乾淨也吃不死人吧？'
後來﹐好長一段時間﹐婆婆不跟我說話﹐家裡的氣氛開始逐漸尷尬。
那段日子﹐先生活得很累﹐不知道要先逗誰開心好。

婆婆為了不讓兒子做早餐﹐義無反顧地承擔起燒早飯的' 重任'。
婆婆看著先生吃得快樂﹐再看看我﹐用眼神譴責我沒有盡到做妻子的責任。
為了逃避尷尬﹐我只好在上班的路上買包奶打發自己。
睡覺時﹐先生有點生氣地問我﹕'蘆荻﹐是不是嫌棄我媽做飯不衛生才不在家吃？'
翻了一個身﹐他扔給我冷冷的脊背﹐任憑我委屈的流淚。
最後﹐先生嘆氣﹕'蘆荻﹐就當是為了我﹐你在家吃早餐行不行？'
我只好回到尷尬的早餐桌上。

那天早晨﹐我喝著婆婆煮的稀飯。
忽然一陣反胃﹐肚子裡所有的東西都搶著向外奔跑。
我拼命地壓抑著不讓它們往上翻湧﹐但還是壓不住。
我扔下碗﹐衝進廁所﹐吐得稀裡嘩啦。
當我喘息著平定下來時﹐聽見婆婆夾雜著家鄉話的抱怨和哭聲。
先生站在衛生間門口憤怒地望著我﹐ 我乾張著嘴巴說不出話﹐我真的不是故意的。

我和先生開始了第一次激烈的爭吵﹐婆婆先是瞪著眼看我們。
然後起身﹐蹣跚著出門去了。
先生恨恨地瞪了我一眼﹐下樓追婆婆去了。
意外迎來新生命﹐卻突然葬送了婆婆的性命！

整整三天﹐先生沒有回家﹐連電話都沒有。
我正氣著﹐想想自從婆婆來後﹐我已經受夠委屈了﹐還要我怎麼樣？
莫明其妙的﹐我最近總想嘔吐﹐吃什麼都沒有胃口﹐加上亂七八糟的家事﹐心情差到了極點。
後來﹐還是同事告訴我﹕'蘆荻﹐你臉色很差﹐還是去醫院看看吧。'
醫院檢查的結果是我懷孕了。
我明白了那天早晨我為什麼突然嘔吐。
幸福中夾著一絲幽怨﹕先生和曾經是過來人的婆婆﹐他們怎麼就絲毫沒有想到這點呢？

在醫院門口﹐我看見了先生。
僅僅三天沒見﹐他憔悴了許多。
我本想轉身就走﹐但他的模樣讓我心疼。
沒忍住﹐我喊了他。
先生循著聲音看見了我﹐卻好像不認識了﹐眼神裡有一絲藏不住的厭惡﹐這冰冷地刺傷了我。
我跟自己說不要看他不要看他﹐伸手攔了一輛出租車。
那時﹐我多想向先生大喊一聲﹕'親愛的我要給你生個寶貝了！'
然後被他舉起來﹐幸福地旋轉。
我希望的並沒有發生。

在出租車裡﹐我的眼淚才遲遲地落下來。
為什麼一場爭吵就讓愛情糟糕到這樣的程度？
回家後﹐我躺在床上想先生﹐想他滿眼的厭惡。
我握著被子的一角哭了。

夜裡﹐家裡有翻抽屜的聲音。
打開燈﹐我看見先生淚流滿面的臉。
他正在拿錢。
我冷冷地看著他﹐一聲不響。
他對我視若無睹﹐拿著存摺和鈔票匆匆離開。
或許先生是打算徹底離開我了。
真是個理智的男人﹐情與錢分得如此清楚。
我冷笑了幾下﹐眼淚'嘩啦嘩啦 '的流下來。

第二天﹐我沒去上班。
想徹底清理一下自己的思緒﹐找先生好好談一談。
找到先生的公司﹐秘書有點奇怪地看著我說﹕'陳總的母親出了車禍﹐這幾天都在醫院裡呢。'
我瞠目結舌。
飛奔到醫院﹐找到先生時﹐婆婆已經去世了。
先生一直不看我﹐一臉僵硬。
我望著婆婆幹瘦蒼白的臉﹐眼淚止不住﹕天哪！怎麼會是這樣？
直到安葬了婆婆﹐先生也沒跟我說一句話﹐ 甚至看我一眼都帶著深深的厭惡。
關於車禍﹐我還是從別人嘴裡了解到大概﹐婆婆出門後迷迷糊糊地向車站走﹐她想回老家﹐先生越追她走得越快﹐穿過馬路時﹐一輛公車迎面撞過來……

我終於明白了先生的厭惡﹐如果那天早晨我沒有嘔吐﹐如果我們沒有爭吵﹐如果……

在他的心裡﹐認定我是間接殺死他母親的罪人。
先生默不作聲搬進了婆婆的房間﹐每晚回來都滿身酒氣。
而我一直被愧疚和可憐的自尊折騰得喘不過氣來﹐想跟他解釋﹐想跟他說我們快有孩子了﹐但看著他冰冷的眼神﹐又把所有的話都咽了回去。
我寧願先生打我一頓或者罵我一頓﹐雖然這一切事故都不是我故意要它發生的。

一天一天地窒息著重覆下去﹐先生回家的時間越來越晚。
我們僵持著﹐比一般的陌生人還要尷尬。
我是繫在他心上的死結。

一次﹐我路過一家西餐廳﹐穿過透明的落地窗﹐ 我看見先生和一個年輕女孩面對面坐著。
他輕輕地為女孩攏了攏頭髮﹐我就明白了這一切。
先是呆住﹐然後我進了西餐廳﹐站在先生面前﹐死死盯著他看﹐眼裡沒有一滴淚。
我什麼也不想說﹐也無話可說。
女孩看看我﹐看看我先生﹐站起來想走﹐但我先生伸手按住她﹐然後﹐同樣死死地﹐一樣絕不示弱地看著我。
我只能聽見自己緩慢的心跳﹐一下一下跳動在瀕臨死亡般的蒼白邊緣。
輸了的是我﹐如果再站下去﹐我會和肚子裡的孩子一起倒下的。

那一夜﹐先生沒回家﹐他用這樣的方式讓我明白﹕隨著婆婆的去世﹐我們的愛情也死了。
先生再也沒有回來過。
有時﹐我下班回來﹐看見衣櫥有被動過──是先生回來拿一點自己的東西。
我不想給他打電話﹐原先還有試圖向他解釋一番的念頭﹐但一切都已經徹底失去了。
我一個人過生活﹐一個人去醫院作產檢﹐ 每每看見有男人小心地扶著妻子去做產檢﹐我的心便碎的不成樣子。
同事隱約勸我拿掉算了﹐我堅決說不﹐我發瘋似的一定要生下這個孩子﹐也算是對婆婆的死的補償吧。

我下班回來﹐先生坐在客廳裡﹐滿屋子煙霧彌漫﹐茶几上擺著一張紙。
沒必要看﹐我知道那裡面寫了什麼內容。
先生不在家的二個多月﹐我逐漸學會了平靜。
我看著他﹐摘下帽子﹐說﹕'你等一下﹐我簽字。'
先生看著我﹐眼神複雜﹐和我一樣。
我一邊解大衣扣子一邊在心裡對自己說﹕'不哭不能哭……'
眼睛很疼﹐但我決不讓眼淚流出來。
掛好大衣﹐先生的眼睛死死的盯著我已然隆起的肚子。
我笑了笑﹐走過去﹐拖過那張紙﹐看也不看﹐簽上自己的名字﹐推還給他。
'蘆荻﹐你懷孕了？'
自從婆婆出事後﹐這是先生跟我說的第一句話。
我再也管不住眼睛﹐眼淚一瞬間嘩啦地流下來。
我說﹕'是啊﹐不過沒事﹐你可以走了。'

先生沒走﹐黑暗裡﹐我們對望著。
先生慢慢趴在我身上﹐眼淚滲透了被子。
而在我心裡﹐很多東西已經走遠了﹐遠到即使我奔跑都追不到了。
不記得先生跟我說過多少遍'對不起'了﹐我也曾經以為自己會原諒﹐但卻不能。
在西餐廳先生當著那個女孩的面﹐ 他那冰冷的眼神﹐這輩子﹐我忘記不了了。
我們在彼此心上劃下了一道不可磨滅的傷痕。
我的﹐是無意的；他的﹐是刻意的。

期待著冰釋前嫌﹐但過去的已無法再重來！
除了想起肚子裡的孩子時心裡是暖暖的﹐而對先生﹐我心是冷如冰霜。
不吃他買的任何東西﹐不收他的任何禮物﹐不跟他多說一句話。
從在那張紙上簽了字後﹐婚姻以及愛情統統在我的心裡消失了。
有時先生試圖進臥室﹐他來﹐我就出去客廳﹐先生只好睡回婆婆的房間。

夜裡﹐從先生的房間有時會傳來輕微的呻吟﹐我都一聲不響。
這是他習慣玩的伎倆﹐以前只要我不理他了﹐他就裝病﹐我就會乖乖投降﹐關心他怎麼了﹐他就一把抓住我哈哈大笑。
他似乎忘了﹐那時﹐我會心疼是因為有愛情﹐而現在﹐我們還有什麼？
先生的呻吟斷斷續續的一直到孩子出生。
他幾乎每天都在給孩子買東西﹐嬰兒用品﹐兒童用品﹐以及孩子喜歡的書﹐一包包的﹐快把他的房間堆滿了。
我知道他是想用這樣的方式感動我﹐而我完全不為所動。
他只好關在房間裡﹐用電腦'批哩啪啦'敲字﹐或許他正網戀吧﹐但對我已經是無所謂的事了。

隔年春未的一個深夜﹐劇烈的腹痛讓我叫了出來﹐先生一個箭步衝進來﹐好像他根本就沒脫衣服睡覺﹐為的就是等這一刻的到來。
先生背起我就往樓下跑﹐攔車﹐一路上緊緊地握住我的手﹐不停地幫我擦掉額頭上的汗。
到了醫院﹐背起我就往婦產科跑。
趴在他幹瘦而溫暖的背上﹐一個念頭忽然闖進我心裡﹕這一生﹐還有人會像他這樣疼愛我嗎？
先生扶著產房的門把喘息著﹐看著我被推進去﹐那眼神是暖融融的﹐我忍著陣痛對他笑了一下。從產房出來後﹐先生望著我和兒子﹐眼睛濕濕地笑啊笑啊的。
我摸了一下他的手﹐卻是意外的冰冷。
先生望著我﹐微笑﹐然後﹐緩慢而疲憊地癱軟倒下。
我放聲叫喊著他名字……先生依然笑著﹐但沒睜開那疲憊的眼睛……
我以為這一生我再也不會為先生流一滴淚﹐ 而事實卻是﹐從沒有過的如此劇痛撕扯著我的身體。

醫生說﹐我先生的肝癌發現時已是晚期﹐他能堅持這麼久真的算是奇蹟。
我問醫生什麼時候發現的？
醫生說在五個月前﹐然後安慰我﹕'好好的準備後事吧。'
我不顧護士的阻攔﹐回到家﹐衝進先生的房間打開電腦﹐心跳一下子被疼痛窒息了。
先生的肝癌在五個月前就已發現﹐他在夜裡的呻吟是真的﹐ 我居然還以為……
而電腦上滿滿的20多萬字﹐是先生寫給兒子的留言﹕孩子﹐為了你﹐我一直在堅持﹐我要撐到看你一眼再倒下﹐是我這一生最大的願望……我知道﹐你的一生會有很多快樂或者遇到挫折﹐如果我能夠陪你經歷這個成長歷程﹐那該有多麼美好﹐但我想爸爸我沒有這個機會了。
爸爸在電腦上﹐把你一生可能遇到的問題一一地寫下來﹐ 當你之後遇到這些問題時﹐或許你可以參考爸爸給你的意見…………孩子﹐寫完這20 多萬字﹐我感覺像陪你經歷了整個成長過程。
真的﹐爸爸現在很快樂。
好好愛你的媽媽﹐她很辛苦﹐她是這世上最愛你的人﹐也是我這世上最愛的人……
從兒子去幼兒園到讀小學﹐讀中學﹐大學﹐到工作以及愛情種種方面﹐巨細靡遺都寫到了。

先生也給我寫了留言﹕親愛的﹐娶了你是我一輩子最大的幸福﹐原諒我對你的傷害﹐原諒我隱瞞了病情﹐ 因為我想讓你有個好的心情等待孩子的出生……親愛的﹐如果你現在哭了﹐那代表你已經原諒我了﹐那我就會笑了﹐謝謝你一直愛著我…還為我生了個孩子…這些禮物﹐我想我是沒有機會親自送給孩子了﹐請你每年替我送他幾份禮物﹐包裝盒子上都寫好了送禮物的日期……親愛的……

回到醫院﹐先生依舊在昏迷中。
我把兒子抱過來﹐放在他身邊﹐我說﹕'你睜開眼笑一下吧﹐我要讓兒子記住在他爸爸懷裡的溫暖……'
先生艱難地睜開眼﹐微微地笑了一下。
兒子偎依在他懷裡﹐舞動著粉紅色的小手。
我'喀嚓喀嚓'按下快門﹐淚水在臉上放肆地流……

親愛的朋友們 :轉傳一篇感人的文章與你們分享，在你看完了故事，並哭紅你的雙眼時，請記得這個故事警惕我們，有話要講出來，不要憋在心裡，尤其是對於你所在乎的人。

[ 人生最大的懲罰就是後悔 ] 有智慧的您--能不好好把握嗎？

i love tis story so much...
it's very touching...
i hope my the other half..will treat me very nice like him...
but not de sad story of him...

life...
u really is a scerect...
nobody will know u...
nobody will know wat will happen for our next min...

蘆荻...
i hope u ok for ur less life...
u need to jian qiang oh!!!
ut husband will protect u
he will beside u all the time!!!
Gambadek!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-11T12:02:00.002+08:00

跟着感觉走
跟着感觉走
紧抓住梦的手
脚步越来越轻
越来越快活
尽情挥洒自己的笑容
爱情会在任何地方留我
跟着感觉走
紧抓住梦的手
蓝天越来越近
越来越温柔
心情就象风一样的自由
突然发现一个
完全不同的我
跟着感觉走
让它带着我
希望就在不远处等着我
跟着感觉走
让它带着我
梦想的事哪里都会有
跟着感觉走
紧抓住梦的手
蓝天越来越近
越来越温柔
心情就象风一样自由
突然发现一个
完全不同的我
跟着感觉走
让它带着我
希望就在不远处等着我
跟着感觉走
让它带着我
梦想的事哪里都会有
跟着感觉走
让它带着我
希望就在不远处等着我
跟着感觉走
让它带着我
梦想的事哪里都会有

i like tis song...
it feel very nice...
if i can..i hope i can follow my feeling too...
i can 跟着感觉走...
tiw few week it feel more preesure...

1st. sam wan to move to other store at next year...
but still don't know when...
if my brother move to other store...
then i need to go to work myself...
it's mean i need to learn drive car...
ahhhhh....i don't wan....

2nd. working also more preesure now...
need to start be a technician by myself...
i need to work any technician work without other ppl help...
i still hav many things to learn...
what should i do...
pening now....

3rd. alan...our love alrd gone...
don't try to let me back now...
u are de 1 who dun care about our love...
when u hav it..u didn't apperciate it....
when u lose it..u baru nak apperciate it...
it's alrd late...
if u wan to be friend...
then i wil very welcome you

4th.i hate my tong shi...
u all just care about urself...
u all r so self fish!!!!!!
wat good stuff,u all just get it
and leave de bad stuff for me...
don't so self fish,please!!!!!!
but i won't fang qian de!!!!!!
u all still is my teacher......
i love u all...just don't like u all so self fish...
and sail---leave me alone,please!!!!!!
i hate ur sound!!!!!!

5th.is a big good new...^_^
today 11/12 is my parents big day!!!!!!
today is my parents 25 years anniversary
HAPPY 25 ANNIVERSARY TO BOTH OF YOU
i love u,dad mom
wish happy forever
i'm so sorry..i can't do anything for u both...
but i hope u both hav a good dinner cook by me
maybe is not a delicious food la
but hope u both suka ^_^

i will be fine for my work...
i will be ok for my love...
i will be fine for all stuff...
Gambadek,christine!!!!!!
AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!!!!

2008-12-05T05:02:00.002+08:00

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，
只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，

有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
*她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？

很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！
其实是人先被惰性征服，
所以感情才会变淡的。

>>>*在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧!*<<<
听到了吗？明白了吗？

难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。
如果每个人都:
>>懒得讲话、
>>懒得倾听、
>>懒得制造惊喜、
>>懒得温柔体贴，
那么夫妻或是情人之间，
又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？

所以请记住：
>>有活力的爱情,
是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，
>>谈恋爱，
更是不可以偷懒的喔！

>>>*有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了，当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟，他的男朋友很不高兴的说：你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了，我以後再也不会等你了！刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了，她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了*<<<
>>>*同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境；女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。*<<<
你体会到了吗？
*其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！

爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！
懂了吗？
当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。
那并不代表你会选择他.

*我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。
但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。
*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？

其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！
他或许已经等你很久喽！

*当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。
如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。
*所以请记住，
>>喝酒不要超过六分醉，
>>吃饭不要超过七分饱，
>>爱一个人不要超过八分

*那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？
我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情观都不一样，说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！
*如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：
>>爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
>>要道歉，也要道谢；
>>要认错，也要改错；
>>要体贴，也要体谅；
>>是接受，而不是忍受；
>>是宽容，而不是纵容；
>>是支持，而不是支配；
>>是慰问，而不是质问；
>>是倾诉，而不是控诉；
>>是难忘，而不是遗忘；
>>是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
>>是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；
>>可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
>>可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

*^_^*让我们一起祝'愿天下有情人终成眷属!!!!!!!

2008-11-03T10:38:00.003+08:00

藤冈靛个人档案

性别：男

生日：1980年8月18日

星座：狮子座

国籍：日本

地域：亚洲

身高：179cm

三围：胸围--37 腰围--29 臀围--36

鞋号: 43

眼睛: 咖啡色

杂志： Men's Uno / City Magazine / Marie Claire / Jet Magazine HMC / Maxim / ...

平面广告：汇丰银行HSBC / Samsung / Motorola / SONY / Puma / Adidas Levis / Acuvue Johnson & Johnson / Promise / ...

短片： “八月的故事”（饰演平安一角）

电视广告： Sony Cyber Shot / Pepsi / Vodafone / 7up / MacDonald Johnson & Johnson Acuvue / Chilwon Tea / Kawloon Daily

动态秀： American Apparel / Pony / Sony / Levi's / Beams wrangler /...

其它： “劳斯.莱斯”音乐录影带(与何韵诗、陈冠希共同演出)

* 以上资料来自：Dean Fujioka Official Website

http://www.deanfujioka.com/

偶去官网上看过他写的一些东西了，幸好很多都是英文的，偶还能看懂~

结论是：不只脸帅，也是很有思想的一个男生啊! ^_^

藤冈靛

出生于日本,在美国西雅图完成大学学业。

2004年开始旅居香港，从事模特工作，并游走亚洲各地，尝试全方位的表演方式。

常在香港、东京奔走的他，平时会借由音乐、摄影及诗歌文学等创作抒发心中的热情，寻找志同道合的制作人擦出花火。

并不断参与本土及国际广告演出，期望有天成为优秀的演员。

无论是在工作或生活上，体己知心、无坚不摧。

2008-11-03T09:58:00.002+08:00

my girl
my life so boring so no story to tell u la...
everyday is a boring day
sleep work work sleep...
haiz...

tis week i hav working with joseph few day
he stil chase me..but i know i won't say yes to him
i like him as my friends my brother
he is a funny guy
i really like him but not in love

pharmacy life is quite fun quite boring quite happy
i also duno how to say...
i hav the other "tenchnician teacher"
he is sail
korean guys
he is quite good
he start to chase me le...
but we know between us is just a joke.. ^_^
bcoz we totally is a different world ppl
same as me and joseph ^_^
but more harded is..
joseph is more "jiao hua"
hope i can tahan him...
haiz...

last friday is holleween day
but joseph is make me mad...
haiz...
so geram with him!!!

yeasteday..hav a bad news...
my manager---sherri
her mom pass away at 2am morning...
i'm sorry to heard that
i hope u get well soon

i hope my life will hav some "qi ji"
haiz...
boring ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
someone can help me??????

2008-10-11T11:32:00.002+08:00

is quite long time ago didn't write blog le...
very day also is a boring day...
ntg happen...
sleep-working-working-sleep...
boring boring boring...

today work with joseph
joseph-he is a guy who funny..
he chase me many time...
but everytime i also say no with him...
today he stil chase me again...
but i stil dun1 to accpert it...

i hope everything wil be ok
wendy,happy birthday to u ^_^

2008-09-13T11:28:00.003+08:00

>>>>>>

yeah!!!!!
new unifrom!!!!!!
work at Gaint almost 1 year(end of tis Oct)
and it chg unifrom bcoz chg boss,chg logo..and remodeling...
from GREEN to YELLOW
and den chg to WHITE COAT
chg to white coat is bcoz of de pharmacy tehnician
just pass de pharmacy tehnician exam last Wed
and i'm glad tat i pass,thx god ^_^

start from today (12.09.2008)--i'm de pharmacy tehnician!!!
today is my first day wear de white coat...
so happy ^_^
hehe...

christine,gambadek lo ^_^

2008-09-09T11:23:00.002+08:00

funny!!!
really funny!!!!
very funny!!!!!!
Y GET HURT DE ALWAYS IS ME!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE IT!!!!!!!!

wo zheng de hen hurt!!!!!
yuan lai dao tou lai u gao shu wo shi wo zui ni!!!!!
shi ni zui wo de,wei he zui hou hui shi wo zui ni!!!!!!!
hai ba ze ren quan tui gei nide peng you!!!!!
[sheng me yi shi jiao ni de peng you yong ni de hui kou]
zheng de hen hurt!!!!!!

lao tian ye...
wo chen jing gao shu zhi ji bu hui get hurt
ke wei he dao zui hou hai shi get hurt...
wei sheng me wo hai wei le ta ku!!!!!!!
shi wo shuo fen shou de...
wei he wo hai hui ku ne...

ying thuan...
ni xi huan li hua jiu bie zui wo ah!!!
li hua[my junior-xiao xue,zhong xue,hua yue]
wei he lao tian ye ni yao zhe yang dui wo ne...

suan le...
yi qia dou jie shui le...
yuan ju li de lian qing beng lai jiu bu hui you hao jie gou...
i'm so stupid.......
ai qing zheng de hen shang ren...

2008-09-04T02:23:00.002+08:00

yeah!!!!!!
thanks god..thanks ^_^
I PASS LE!!!!!
i pass my pharmacy tehnician exam!!!
thx god..thx for bao you me,thx

thx dad,mom,bro,2nd bro
thx for ur guys supported me...
gu li me...
thx,i love u all
thx wallace..thx for wish me pray for me and supported me
thx, my dear..lov u ^_^

thx wendy, thx derrick,thx ah gu,thx all my friends my relatif
thx for ur guys supported me,thanks ^_^
i love u all

sherri,bernie,laura,saal
i pass le
i'm so happy tat i didn't let u guys disspointed
and thx for teaching me
thx for supported me wish me
love u all
i hope i can be more pro in tehnician
so..pls continue to teach me
thx ^_^

i really very happy tat i hav pass de exam ^_^
when i arrived de exam station...
i feel jing zhang and very scare...
when i start tk my exam...
i feel very scare..bcoz some question de answer almost same...
and some of they i feel like i didn't study b4 too...
but luckly i pass le ^_^
the score for pass is 390...
and i get 398...
very luckly i get more 8 marks...
haha..if not i fail le...
thx for all friends tat supported me
i wil gambadek for my future
thx..Aza Aza Fighting,christine ^_^

2008-09-03T08:45:00.002+08:00

today is a quite tired busy day...
today start working at 11am to 7 pm...
and no break at all foe whole day...
tired..really tired...

tomorrow is wed le...
wed---is my pharmacy tehn test exam...
god...pls bao you me pass
thx...

wallace,
my dear..thx for wish me and pray for me
i wil try my best to pass my test
1 time let it pass
so continue to wish me and pray for me ^_^

sherri,bernie,laura,saal
i hope i won't let ur guys disspointed
and thx for wish me ^_^

god..
must bao you me oh ^_^

Gambadek!!!
AzaAza Fighting!!!!!!!

2008-08-30T23:18:00.002+08:00

tired...really tired...
tis coming wed is a imported day for me...
i wil tk my real pharmacy tehn exam on tis coming wed...
so scare now...
i hope i wil pass!!!

wallace i really hope...
i really hope..u r online b4 i go to test...
i hope i can hear "gambadek" from u...
anyway i want it won't become true...

god..
pls let me pass my exam...
thx...

2008-08-27T11:09:00.002+08:00

feel like i didn't blog long time ago...
actually i hav many things to blog just..lazy to type...
blogger..i miss u ^_^

tis few day feel like many things happen...
but life is very boring...
single life is boring even coupls life also is boring...
i duno y LIFE so BORING!!!!!!

tis few day sherry keep asking me how about de practice test...
actually i feel ok la...
but de first time(today) i tk de prectice test...
i fail...
bcoz my internet down...
so dao zhi my time keep going but my question keep loading...
WTH!!!!!!!!!
i need to pay agian to retaking de practice...
is $25 dollar us ahhhhh...
not murah...
so sakit hati....
if tomorrow i retaking test past...
den i hope tis saterday i wil tk de real test...
if i past den i'm de real pharmacy tehn le ^_^
i hope i wish i can past...
god,pls tk care of me..thx...^_^
tis few day..
after working..feel very tired...
v v v v v v v v v de tired...
i think u also same ba...

wallace..
honestly i hav fall in love with u...
but not all my feeling...
i scare to get hurt or hurt other ppl...
i hav no more comfident...
i wan end up our relatioship
but when i end u strat treat me gd again...
wat should i do...
i hav no more idea...
should i just giv u a chg??????

wendy..
dun worry about me...
i just fa lao shao at here...
just avoid wat i'm writing at here about ur daddy...
ok ^_^
tk care urself oh and gambadek,my gal ^_^

love...
u playing me...
prectice test...
u playinging...
internet...
u playing me...
pharymacy tehn...
u giving me pressure...
wallace...
u giving me love...
u giving me happy day...
u giving me uncomfitable...

all...
all of things...
just let it shun qi zhi ran...
do u agree wat i'm doing now??????

2008-08-15T01:51:00.002+08:00

生日的顏色
12月23日~ 01月01日=紅色
01月02日- 01月11日=橙色
01月12日- 01月24日=黃色
01月25日- 02月03日=粉紅色
02月04日- 02月08日=藍色
02月09日- 02月18日=綠色
02月19日- 02月28日=啡色
02月29日- 03月10日=水藍色
03月11日- 03月20日=石灰色
03月21日 =黑色
03月22日- 03月31日=紫色
04月01日- 04月10日=深藍色
04月11日- 04月20日=銀色
04月21日- 04月30日=白色
05月01日- 05月14日=藍色
05月15日- 05月24日=金色
05月25日- 06月03日=奶油色
06月04日- 06月13日=灰色
06月14日- 06月23日=栗色
06月24日 =灰色
06月25日- 07月04日=紅色
07月05日- 07月14日=橙色
07月15日- 07月25日=黃色
07月26日- 08月04日=粉紅色
08月05日- 08月13日=藍色
08月14日- 08月23日=! 綠色
08月24日- 09月02日=啡色
09月03日- 09月12日=水藍色
09月13日- 09月22日=石灰色
09月23日 =黃綠色
09月24日- 10月03日=紫色
10月04日- 10月13日=深藍色
10月14日- 10月23日=銀色
10月24日- 11月11日=白色
11月12日- 11月21日=金色
11月22日- 12月01日=奶油色
12月02日- 12月11日=灰色
12月12日- 12月21日=栗色
12月22日 =黃綠色

以下是颜色的解说：
＊紅色＊
你的可愛十分惹人喜愛！對愛情你很揀擇但又常常在戀愛，也喜歡被愛的感覺。你有著清新的氣質和開朗的個性，但有些時侯也會變得'多愁善感'。和別人相處的時侯你表現得很友善和溫柔，所以很多人願意和你親近。你喜歡跟友善和隨和的人做朋友。

＊奶油色＊
你愛和別人競爭，失敗的感覺你最受不了。極愛運動和戶外活動，你的性格開朗也值得別人信賴。對愛情你會表現得很小心，不會輕易愛上一個人。但一旦找到你生命中的伴侶時，你絕不會讓他跑掉。

＊藍綠色＊
你最注重自己的外表。對選擇愛侶的要求甚高。你! 每每擁有清晰的頭腦去思考和解決難題，又不易犯錯。你喜歡在人群中被重視，也因此令你容易認識到新朋友。

＊灰色＊
你很好動，也很有吸引力。你永不會把想說的話藏在心，總會抒發自己的感情。但有時會變得較自私。你渴望得到別人的注意，討厭不公平的對待。你很風趣，也懂得在適當時侯說適當的話，常常也令到身邊的人快樂。

＊綠色＊
你總能和新相識的朋友相處得很好。你不算是一個害羞的人，但有時侯你的說話每每傷害了別人。你渴望得到愛侶的注意，也較喜歡'被愛'的感覺，大多數的時間你總是在等待你生命中的另一半出現。

＊金色＊
你很清楚什麼應該做、什麼不應該做。性格開朗又好交際。

＊粉紅色＊
對任何事你總是全力己赴的，還有你很愛照顧其他人。但你不是一個容易滿足的人，常有消極的想法。你常祈望你的愛情像童話故事一樣美麗和完美。

＊黃色＊
你是一個又天真又'甜'的人。常獲得別人的信任，亦有很強的領導能力。當要做決定或選擇的時侯，你總是做對了決定。還有，你常常朣憬著一段浪漫的戀情。

＊栗色＊
你有一個聰明的腦袋。也是一個自我的人，常依自己的喜好來做事，有時會因為不大理別人的感受而惹上麻煩。對於愛情你很有耐性，當你找到你要找的那一位後，你不會再愛上別人。

＊橙色＊
你總會對自己做過的事付責任，亦很懂得怎樣待人接物。你常常給自己定下很多目標和競爭對象。你很難去相信別人，包括你的朋友，但當你認為他是可信的話，你將會把他當成永遠的知己。

＊紫色＊
你是一個神祕的人，從不自私，也很難對任何人和事發生興趣。你的狀態永遠是說不定的，是一個情緒化的人。很受周遭的人歡迎，但有是你會做出愚笨的舉動，記性也不太好。你最喜歡與一些有著真性情的人做朋友。

＊石灰色＊
你是一個冷靜的人，但常給自己壓力。你常常在小事上挑剔，又容易妒忌。你不大會定下來，但你可愛的性格能獲得朋友的信任也樂於跟你接近。

＊黑色＊
你樂於接受挑戰，因為你擁有接受挑戰的勇氣。但你並不喜歡改變你自己的生活方式。一旦你落實了一個決定，你會長久地朝著這個方向走。你的愛情也是充滿挑戰和有點與別不同。

＊黃綠色＊
你是一個心腸軟和帶給別人溫暖的人。你與家人和朋友的關係良好。十分討厭暴力，清楚什麼應該做什麼不應該做。你也十分善良和? 酚^，又很知足，並不會輕易妒忌別人擁有什麼。

＊啡色＊
你很愛運動，整個人都充滿活力。但別人很難去接近你，話雖如此，你很容易投入一段感情。但當你發現你在那段感情中得不到你想要的東西時，你會立即放棄，也會復完得很快。

＊藍色＊
你對自己沒有信心，也很挑剔。你很有藝術天分，也很容易去愛上一個人，但當愛情來的時侯，你只是用你的'感覺'去愛，而並非用你的心去愛。

＊銀色＊
你是一個有豐富想像力和害羞的人，但你樂於接受新事物和新嘗試。你喜歡挑戰自己。學習新的事物時很快會上手，遇強越強。但你的愛情生活通常也比較多挫折和困惑。

＊深藍色＊
你是一個很吸引人的發光體，也很愛惜自己的生命。你對身邊所有事物都帶著強烈的感覺。你是一個容易'意亂情迷'的人。如果有人把你激怒了，你很難會原諒他。

＊白色＊
你的人生充滿著夢和理想。你對周遭的事有點漠不關心，容易妒忌。你是較為獨特的一群，有時侯，你心中想法總會比別人高深一點。

＊水藍色＊
你的感覺來去如風。你的生活也帶點孤單，很愛旅遊。你對待別人很真誠，但太容易受別人的影響。對你來說，尋找愛情是一件很難的事，也容易在愛中迷失，令你很容易便被愛情所傷

2008-08-12T09:36:00.002+08:00

y my heathly so weak de...
start feel not well le...
i very hope tat u r beside me now...
but..i know it won't be...
wallace...

love..wat is love...
wat is long distance love...
wallace can u tell me...
i admit tat i start can't control myself with u le...
i start feel wan to be with u all de time le...
i hav promise myself..i won't put all my love in tis relationship le...
but at de last i lose le...
i can't control myself...

tis few day i feel hard...
i duno wat shoula i do le...
i scare to get hurt...
i scare i get lie from u...
i scare to lose u le...
wallace..i lov u...

2008-08-06T00:31:00.002+08:00

萧敬腾-原谅我
作词:阿沁(fir) 陈天佑吴易纬
作曲:阿沁(fir)
专辑:同名专辑

请不要分了以后还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占
有一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以后还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐不是我爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流我怕说不出口
原谅我没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我爱原来要舍得
我难过
我才懂

2008-08-04T10:49:00.002+08:00

bday pass le...
wallace..i'm dispointed with u...
i duno is tat correct to couple with u or not...
like tarot tell me...
i won't hav a true love in tis year...
i try to play more time...
but result also is same...

i try to tio zhang with tarot
so i accpert u
but we couple almost 1 week le...
we just chatting around 20-30 min
did we really couples??????????
long distance love really very hard...
plus ur working time is so long....
wat should i do???

i'm a gal tat more diffrent with other gal...
i need a guy tat really care about me...
put me at de first place in ur heart...
i need a guy like 24 hour also care me teman beside me...
u tell me i'm de first place at ur heart...
but i didn't feel tat at all...
i really duno wat should i do le...

as me zhou you ming...
everything shun qi zhi ran ba...

irene,ming chaing
really thx for u both de present ^_^
tis is my first,only bday present
i really very happy,thx
when i get ur present i very happy and almost wan to cry le ^_^
thx
really thx a lot
muackz ^_^

2008-08-01T00:48:00.003+08:00

MyHotComments

malaysia time:
Happy Birthday To You,yising ^_^
Wish you all the best in you future.
Gambadek ^_^

2008-07-30T02:48:00.002+08:00

tired tired tired....
today wake up at 11.00am....
so late...
when i online...
he is alrd online le...

so qi guai de things is...
so late le he still online...
i ask him y didn't sleep yet...
he say can't sleep...
i kidding with him miss gf???
he say
:alrd break le...
:u wan me???
i suddenly feel jing ya...
bcoz we both just know around 2 week...
plus i didn't hav xin xing for long distance love le...
i say
:r u kidding me???
:i'm so ugly...
he answer me
:i like u...

haiz...
really duno wat to do le...
tarot tell me i won't find my zheng ming tian zhi in tis year...
should i go ahead to accpert him
or should i say no...
tarot..should i tiao zhang u???
very blur....
haiz.....

tech test...
even just a book also very to find...
international tech...
haiz...
i go online also can't find a website to tk a pretisce...
wat should i do now...
swt ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2008-07-25T22:58:00.002+08:00

Create Your Own Countdown

hav few more day is my bird day le

but bday so wat...

no friends beside me

my parents not beside me too...

bday still need to work...

birthday so wat!!!

haiz...

last year bday is first year at usa

tis year is second year le...

come to usa almost 2 year le...

but i still dun like usa at all...

plus i just back from msia 1 month ago...

i more dun like usa le...

2 years bday also celebra. without my best friends...

tis year more terrible..without my parents...

hope both of they enjoy thier vacation...

i also hope tis year bday will hav a little bit diffrent with last year...

but i know tat's imposibble things...

haiz...

mati hati ba...

2008-07-22T09:18:00.004+08:00

tired..tired..tired ahhhh
very tired....
bcoz of tranning...
i need to start more few hour...
ahhhhhhhhh
everytime tranning also need to sit in front of pc
de eyes feel very sleepy very tired...
haiz...

i meet a friend recently
he quite nice de...
is a fun guys...^_^
chat with him quite fun...

life very boring...
how can i create it to a colourful life???
wat shall i do...

2008-07-17T05:30:00.002+08:00

so tired...
very tired...
yeasteday working about 8 hr++
very tired...
alrd long time i didn't work 8 hr per day le...

yeasteday may say is my unlucky and quite fun day...
very confuse...
is unluckly day but still is quite fun day...
yeasteday start working at 2pm until 10pm...
started everythings is ok...
until 5 old clock something...
de promble is coming...

First is tat stupid joseph giving de wrong prescription to patient!!!!!!
y u giving de wrong prescription to wrong patient!!!!!!!!
y u taking my patient de prescription to ur patient!!!!!!!!
and say u didn't tk it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dao zhi sherri angry with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so funny things!!!!!!!!!!!
not my false but i need to scold by sherri!!!!!!!!!!
this is de first time i saw sherri angry with me....
sherri most like me at de whole pharmacy but now....
OMG!!!!!!WTH!!!!!!!!!!
is bcoz of u!!!U---joseph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
but luckly at the end u remember u giving de wrong prescription to who's....
very luckly...
if not...den sherri will bei ni tou xia shui......
giving wrong prescription to wrong patient is very dangerous things...
it will dao zhi 1 feller die...
very luckly...thx god...

Second is yeasteday de prescription almost 80% hav insurance promble...
even de new prescription also hav insurance promble...
omg...we need to redo all...
and tat stupid joseph duno who to do...
haiz...
i'm so qing xin tat u leave at 7pm...
de whole pharmacy like become hun luan zhong...
swt...

Thrid is de 198 Giant just remodeling...
all stuff 360 chg place...
hav many custermer come and ask me...
:whr is tis...
:whr is tat...
omg...
wth...i'm also same with u guys...
i just back from vacation...
and de store just remodeling...
how i know whr is de wat wat wat stuff at whr!!!!!!
i'm de worker i shall know whr it put but i not really know ah!!!!
dun u guys ask de custermer servise!!!!!!!!
de custermer servise department is helping u all de....
haiz...

Fourth is de printed....
sherri press de wrong buttom...
she wan to print de medicine report...
but she didn't fill all information and...
she press de print...
de promble is...
she is printing about daily report from 24.04.08 until 16.07.08....
omg...
de report print about 200-300 page......
when she attention about de printed tat time...
de printed alrd print about 100++ page le...
and she still duno is her false...
de funny thing is she ask me...
:who print de daily report!!!!!!!!!
hahahahaha.....
she try to stop it...
everytime when she feel she is settle...
next few min de printed keep going print de report...
and tat stupid joseph say...
:u press de stop buttom den it will automatik stop
and sherri think it will same like he say...
mana tau when tat stupid joseph leave few min ago...
de printed printing again...
hahahahahahahaha.....
we try about 3 time to stop it but at the end it keep going printing...
so sad...
we waste about 300 A4 paper...
haiz...

Fifth is when laura say
:sherri u need to close de computer and printed and restart...
sherri doing wat laura say de...
but when de time we all wan leave pharmacy and we need to print de daily report...
de printed print de same stuff again...
and sherri start crazy le...
and laura ask her hav u restart de pc
sherri say yes..let me do again let u see...
at tat time we just know y de printed still print de same stuff...
de promble is sherri just restart de moniter not de pc...
so funny...
we all laugh even sherri also laugh...
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
so funny....
hahahaha....
after tat i think de printed alrd ok le ba...
bcoz is time's up le...
i need to go le if not later tat stupid David Grove will unhappy....

yeasteday really hav many thing happen...
happy..fun..sad..worry..angry...
but i feel like bei yuan wong...
luckly tat at the end...
sherri say she know is joseph giving de wrong prescription to wrong patient...
she say tat she didn't angry with me...
but i know tat y sherri will so angry...
bcoz medicine wil dao zhi 1 feller die...
so i forgive her...
haiz...
this is de first time i get angry from sherri...
but anyway is ntg now...
tomorrow still is a new day ^_^
hav a nice day,christine ^_^

2008-07-11T09:28:00.002+08:00

today is my off day...
alone at home...
ntg to do...

after wake up...
searching some movie...
den bake some muffin...
after finish baking..wacth movie with bro...
aftre 4.30pm become a miss lonely...
alone at house...
ntg to do...
wacth anime"conan" and do stitch together...
boring boring boring......
boring ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

today i knew a guy from net...
his quite nice...
friendy too...
hope we will become gd friends

ntg to blog le...
bcoz my usa life is boring!!!!!!
ntg to do ntg to blog...
haiz......

2008-07-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

dad,
happy birthday to u
tis is de first time we didn't beside u
i hope u and mom enjoy ur bday at singapore ^_^

usa life really very boring...
haiz....
yeasteday start techn tranning...
but it like de book tat i hav read...
haiz...
repeact to do again de same stuff
but a lit diff is tis tranning i hav pay...
hehe....
how many hour tat i hav do at my tranning...
i also can claim...
yess!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sometime alone a house...
i feel very lonely....
ntg to do at home...
just sit in front of de pc....
tat's it....
only stuff i can do....
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

xiao peng jie...
ah mei jie...
wen hao ge...
my relatif...
si dang...
wendy...
wei jie...
......................
hao xiang ni meng ah......
hope u all happy always......

2008-07-06T23:09:00.004+08:00

back to usa alrd 1 week++ le...
but my time still can't stable...
exp:thurday sleep at 3am but wake up at 6am...
friday sleep at 12am++ but wake up at saterday 1.30pm...
saterday night sleep at 2.30am but wake up at 4.41am......
so terrible ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
if continue like tat...
i sure become a crazy gal...

my life my mood my feeling become normal le...
but just my time still can't...
so kacau ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

feel like i'm return back to de 1 tat i baru tiba usa de kelakuan....
always stay at home only...
always feel dun1 go out to shopping or join any function...
now my life is wake up---working---sleep
doing de same things again and again......
feel so terrible...

i dun1 continue like tat....
someone pls help me....
i hope tat i can hav a happy life at here...
i hope tat i can settle my stuff ASAP...
i hope everythings at here can shun li...
i hope de time pass more fast...
so tat i can go back to msia ASAP...
haiz...

wat can i do now??????
wat shall i do now??????
lao tian ye,
pls tell me...
i know u know de anwser...
i'm sure u know de anwser...
pls tell me......

2008-07-04T12:29:00.003+08:00

today i received flower from someone
and suddenly i feel wanna check wat de flower means
after i check at baidu
i feel very happy
thank you my dear
here share with u all the meaning of different flower ^_^

玫瑰：纯洁的爱、美丽的爱情、美好常在
红玫瑰：热恋、热情、热爱着你
紫玫瑰:浪漫真情、珍贵独特
白玫瑰：天真、纯洁、尊敬
黄玫瑰：高贵、美丽或道歉、享受与你一起的曰子、珍重祝福、失恋、褪去的爱
粉玫瑰：初恋、求爱、爱心与特别的关怀
黑玫瑰:温柔真心蓝玫瑰:敦厚善良
橙玫瑰：富有青春气息、初恋的心情、献给你一份神秘的爱
香槟玫瑰：我只钟情你一个
玫瑰（捧花）：幸福之爱

郁金香：爱的告白、真挚情感、永恒的祝福
红郁金香：爱的宣言、喜悦、热爱
紫郁金香：永不磨灭的爱情、最爱、无尽的爱
白郁金香：纯洁的友谊、失恋
黄郁金香：高贵、珍重、道歉、珍贵、财富、友谊
粉郁金香：美人、热爱、爱惜、幸福
黑郁金香：神秘、高贵、忧郁的爱情
高原郁金香：自豪、挺立、创造的美、美的创造
双色郁金香：美丽的你、喜相逢
羽毛郁金香：情意绵绵

康乃馨：伟大、神圣、慈祥、温馨的母爱、爱情、健康
红康乃馨：热烈的爱、祝母亲健康长寿、爱情
粉康乃馨：祝母亲永远美丽、年轻、热爱
黄康乃馨：对母亲的感激之情、热爱着你
白康乃馨：真情、纯洁、拒绝你的

百合：百年合好、事业顺利、祝福
白百合：纯情、纯洁
粉百合:清纯、高雅
黄百合：财富、高贵、荣誉、胜利
火百合：热烈的爱
香水百合：纯洁、高贵、婚礼的祝福
玉米百合：执著的爱、勇敢
狐尾百合：尊贵、欣欣向荣、杰出
编笠百合：才能、威严、杰出
圣诞百合：喜洋洋、庆祝、真情
水仙百合：喜悦、期待相逢

勿忘我：永恒的爱
非洲菊：神秘、兴奋、有毅力
紫罗兰：永续的美
风信子:喜悦、爱意、幸福、浓情、倾慕
水仙：高雅、清逸、芬芳脱俗
风铃草:温柔的爱
茉莉花:亲切
山茶花:希望
秋牡丹:思念
一串红:恋爱的心
一串白:精力充沛
一串紫:智慧
蝴蝶兰:初恋、幸福逐渐到来
红山茶:天生丽质
满天星:思念
向日葵：爱慕、光辉、忠诚
大理花:华丽、优雅
油菜花：加油
蕾丝花：惹人怜爱
火鹤花：新婚、祝福、幸运、快乐
海　芋:纯洁、幸福、清秀、纯净的爱
桔　梗:永恒的爱和无望的爱
翠　菊：担心你的爱
剑　兰:长寿、福禄、康宁

hope u like it ^_^
wendy,hope u like it too ^_^

2008-07-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

today deelpy tired...
haiz...
ntg to do feel more tired...
feel more sleeply...

countdown from now until my bday...
stil hav 28 days to go...
this years is my 2nd bday in usa and without my friends...
somemore this years my parents not at here during my bday...
now i alrd feel so lonely le...
i stil remember last years bday...
i celebra at KFC...
actually not celebra is belanja my usa relatif makan...
swt...
my bday i stil need to belanja...
and my auntie also didn't giv me anythings!!!!
i'm not care about de gift!!!!!!
but at least u and ur family should say "happy bday to u"ma...
i really hate u and ur family!!!!!!
is u guys paksa us come to usa!!!!!!
is u guys bring us tong ku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hate u guys ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i hope this years bday...
i can enjoy and hav a wonderful bday...
but i know it won't be a wonderful bday...
bcoz without my parents...
without my friends...

guys...
i miss u all...
ever i alrd arrived usa 1 week le...
i really miss u all...
xiao ping jie...
irene...
wendy...
wei jie...
all friends!!!!
all relatif!!!!
all of u!!!!!!!!!!
i really miss u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-03T06:46:00.005+08:00

02.07.08
so fast...
alrd july le...
back from msia alrd 1 week le...
alrd start working for 2nd day le...
all de stuff return back le...
so miss my friends...
so miss my relatif...
so miss my lovely trip...

my mood my feeling alrd return back le...
actually at sunday my mood feeling alrd ok le...
just my lonely not feel well yet...
but tuesday alrd ok le...
hope all things well be ok soon...

first day working...
when i just arrived Giant Pharmacy...
they all so happy to saw me back...
all of them say "welcome back"...
somemore Mitar(3th pharmicst) giv me a hug...
feel happy but at de same time feel scare...
bcoz 198 Giant is just remodeling...
all stuff all things 360 chg...
lucky Sarah(my shifu) help me to remind all things...
Saal(pharmacy technician) & Bernard(2nd pharmicst) hav fun with me let me feel more relax...
thx guys...

2nd day working...
meet Shirley(pharmacy manager) le...
she very happy tat i'm come back le...
she also giv me a hug...
i ask her about de exam...
she told me is just a tranning...
exam anything time also can but b4 tat i need to tk de tranning...
but when is my tranning ne???!!!!!!

all thing return back le...
all...
boring life...
jail life...
all..all come back le...
but i wil tiao zhang "U all"...
msia...wait me.....
i wil be back......
love u all

2008-06-30T21:13:00.002+08:00

30.06.08
today is de 4th day i reach usa...
also is a boring day...
bcoz i alone at home...
my parents now at msia...
enjoy they trip...
hope they enjot it

sat and sun go to New York...
so regrat tat i hav go with my uncle...
bcoz feel like kurang somethings and boring tired too...
kurang somethings=my parents
haiz...
no fun at all...

we hu fa at sat de 6.00pm
drive around 4++hour...
we arrived NY...
we go to chinatown hav our dinner at 10.37pm...
after finish we go to de city of NY...
all big TV at de building...
when we arrived NY city alrd 11.56pm...
den we go to hotel check in...
tat time alrd 12.50am...
when i sleep alrd 1.30am....
WTH go vacation also feel so tired...
plus my time didn't chg back yet
haiz....

2nd day we wake up at 7.30am
after all prepare done we check out
tat time is 9.14am...
den we go to "lian he gou da sha"
after tat go to Statu of Liberty (zhi you nu shen xiang)
after we finish alrd 2.45pm
lucky we arrived car park le baru xia yu...
den we go to chinatown again to hav our lunch at 3.35pm...
after finish our lunch(4.05pm)we hav a little shopping at thr
around 5.03pm we start go to Alantic City...
we arrived at 7.10pm...
arounf 8.45pm we back from thr...
drive around 30min we hav a stop at rest area...
we hav our dinner(burger)at 11.07pm...
after finish(11.50pm) we start drive...
around 2.35am we baru arrived my uncle house...
den we still need to drive back home...
we arrived home is 2.45am!!!!!!!!!!
WTH!!!!so late so tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

den next day my bro need to wake up early!!!!
1 is 6.30 am...
1 is 7.00am...
so tired ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and me also follow them wake up so early...
bczo today is de first day my bro work too
and my mom not at here...
i'm de only 1 gal at home...
i need to prepare for them...
hope my bro ok for his first day working

this NY trip really very tired!!!!!!!!!!
very regrat go with them...
haiz...
and i miss u all...
my dear parent...
my dear friends...
(T_T).........

2008-06-29T03:13:00.003+08:00

......
i'm so supprise tat he wan me be his gf again...
i hurt him be4...
am i so good for u???
i'm bigger than u...

i hurt u b4...
i hav hurt someone else...
i dun1 to hurt anybody now...
i hope i can make it (wat i'm saying)
maybe i know tat i can't make it...
but long distance de love...
i can't handle le...
sorry,my dear...
make u sad again...

2008-06-28T22:01:00.008+08:00

me and my bro ^_^ , my orkestra friends ^_^

yeah ^_^ , crazy guys :P

my high school friends ^_^ , at the stawberry farm (caremen highland)

cutie ^_^ , colourful ^_^

kawaiiiii , stawberry farm at cameren highland

me and iris(my cute cousin) , ...... (funny ma) ^_^

sweet memory , smile...

sweet family

27.06.08
today is second i arrived usa le
de time stil can't chg back...
today i wake up at 5.08am...
omg...
so early and yeasteday sleep until 3.15pm...
haiz....

today uncle alex say wan to bring us go to new york
first time going to vacation without my parents...
feel sad..feel like kurang somethings....
i miss them so much now...
hope they enjoy at msia...

de most regrat for this msia trip is...
i didn't tk pic with him...
every friends tat i meet i also hv tk just him...
only him...
i think he also feel regrat or sad ba...
haiz...

back here alrd 2nd day le...
but i still think about msia...
i hope i can go back ASAP!!!!!!
hope u all pray for me ba,thx ^_^
without my parents i feel like kurang somethings...
i miss them so much...
the house just me and 2 bro...
de feeling so qi guai...
haiz...

god...
pls help me...

i need ur help...

pls le...
thx...

2008-06-28T12:31:00.002+08:00

27.06.08
today is de first day i arrived usa...
i just supprise tat de first day...
i sleep until 3.15pm!!!!!
omg...
haiz...
i hope my time well chg back more fast...

i alrd arrived usa le
but...
my heart stil at msia...
i miss u guys...
i really miss u all
i miss de gathering tat we hav
i miss de hang out tat we hav
i most miss is "U 2"
how r u now???
i hope both of u everythings alright at singapore

i miss u all
i really miss u all... (T_T)

2008-06-27T02:42:00.002+08:00

26.06.08---i arrived usa le...
my boring life come back le...
when is my next trip to msia...
i totally dun no...
totally no mu biao...

1 month holiday...
finish like tat...
so fast..really very fast...
Mr time...
y u pass so fast when during my vacation...
i really hope tat my 1 month vacation just start and won't finish forever...
really miss my msia trip...
very fun very happy very nice

i miss u--xiao ping jie...
i really miss u
until now i still rethink during everytime we hang out together...
now u at singapore
and i at usa
1 at south,1 at north...
haiz...

this msia is really very nice
ever some friends i didn't meet
but really happy
i cry be4 i back to usa
bcoz i really very enjoy it
but i didn't hav choose
i must come back...
1 more things is my parents now at msia...
when i come back to usa...
i feel bu si guan without my daddy and mommy...
i miss u guys...
hope aug come more fast
hope u 2 enjoy de trip too

my dear friends...
i miss u all
i miss de time tat we hang out together
i miss u all
wait me for my next trip
but i duno when...
pls wait me...
love u all
thx for teman me during my trip
thx guys ^_^ love u guys ^_^

2008-06-18T10:11:00.002+08:00

today is 18.06.08
so fast...
really very fast...
my lovely vacation almost gone le...
stil hav 7 day only
i want to say good bye to msia le
(GOOD BYE MY LOVE"MSIA",WO DE AI REN"MSIA" ZAI JIAN)
haiz......

is really fun during this 2 week
everyday also hav fun with friends
everyday also shopping..buy de things tat i wan
is REALLY VERY FUN

i still remember last sunday (15.06.08)
i meet 5K1
we talk about de stuff when we all still at heng ee
and we chat about de movie "lao shi jia lao da"
haha...really fun ^_^
they all mo fang de lao shi
haha...
until now when i think it also feel very funny
haha...thx my friends
i really happy and enjoy tat day

msia...
my lovely country...
i need to say good bye with u le....
wo zheng de she bu de ni ah...
NEAT TRIP...IS WHEN??????

2008-06-13T00:25:00.003+08:00

12.06.08---i alrd arrived msia 1 week++
time really pass very fast...
alrd 13 days pass le
but lucky i hav hav fun everyday

today...
i go to meet him (my ex-bf)
i call irene & ming jiang come to fetch me
after i fang le my mum & bro at my uncle house
i go to irene house
den we go to eat "shua shua le" at Pragin Mall
after tat we go to Batu Ferriggi
den he say he wil go to Kuk Loh Si
so irene say we go to Kuk Loh Si meet him
mana tau!!!
when we arrived Kok Loh Si and alrd pay de parking fee
he told me he didn't go to Kok Loh Si le!!!!!!
ah~~~geram ah!!!!!and very angry
bcoz from Batu Ferriggi we gan dao Kuk Loh Si
and he tell me he didn't go le......

he tell me meet at USM!!!!!
i ask irene...
shall i go to meet him
irene say:go to meet him la,nang de he alrd at Penang le
*actually i really very scare to meet him de...but i duno wat i'm scare!!!!!!

haiz....
i wei you go to USM meet him le...
when i arrived USM...
i feel very scare...
but i duno wat i'm scare
i wait him around 10 min he baru tibe USM...
and when i meet him...
i feel very hot and feel scare...
i duno y..........

after meet him and pass de things to him...
i feel zheng ge ren relax le... ^_^
i fan niao whole month de stuff alrd settle le...
i hope he like de present and jia le also suka ^_^

this trip is really fun and finally i meet him le...
all stuff alrd pass for him le
i hav go to Pragin Mall,Quessbay,Gurney Plaza......
all stuff tat i wan almost buy full le
hope de 12 more day will pass with happy and nang wang ^_^

2008-05-29T22:34:00.002+08:00

Finally..finally...finally!!!!!!!
i'm fly le ^_^
YEAH!!!!!!
ah~~~~~

yeah!!!!
finally is de date go back le
so happy
damn happy de
but a lit bit scare...
bcoz is first time by flight without my big bro....
hope everything ok
thx god ^_^

my friends
I'M COMING LO ^_^

2008-05-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

stil hav 4 days
4 days more!!!
haha
ahhh~~~~
can't wait le!!!!!!

my feeling now is very
~kuai le
~qi dai
~xin fen
~gao xin
really very happy now...
i finally can meet my friends le
i finally can go back to visit my lovely country le
yeah~~~~
really very qi dai...
even when i sleep also dreaming about this time vacations...
hehe....

yeasteday disspointed with some1....
break promise....
i do really disspointed with him....
i hav no more tenaga...
just do watever he like ba...
actually i hav no kuasa angry him disspointed with him...
bcoz i'm also de 1 who break promise....
i hav promise him b4 when i at penang sure go to hav fun with him...
but at de last....i didn't do watever i hav promise...(shuai ran de day didn't come yet)
even i wan to pass stuff to him...
i also need to try my best to plan to meet him....
haiz....
am i hav kuasa to angry him..disspointed watever he hav done now...
bcoz i'm also same.....

heng ee orkestra
gambadek!!!!!!
gambadek for this year de quan gou he zhao bi sai and du zhao bi sai
i know u all can do it
i know u all can do it even without her
so gambadek oh
HENG EE ORKESTRA,GAMBADEK!!!!!!

wendy...
if u can't hang out with me...
den i go to heng ee meet u lo ^_^
but if can i stil hope u can hang out with me oh
bcoz i nang de go back ma ^_^
i plan we
~go to wacthing narnia 2
~shop together
~tk de da tou tia together
~eat together
~celebrate my bday together too
i do really hope u can hang out with me
but if can't den nvm de
i just hang out with u at heng ee lo ^_^
hehe...

msia,my memory,my lovely trip...
i'm coming ^_^

2008-05-23T10:51:00.002+08:00

yeah!!!
stil hav 6 days only!!!
ahhh~~~~~~
can't wait de time past le....
so slow...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

my dearest friends
i really very happy now...
finally i can meet u all le...
i really very happy!!!
but maybe for u all(i'm back to msia)just a normal things...
or..really serious for this stuff...
i duno too..no idea...
but for me...
i'm really very happy ^_^

this 1 year and 5 month++...
i do really miss all stuff at msia...
no matter is friends or wat stuff i also miss...
i really miss u all...
sometime i wil cry myself bcoz of usa life...
bcoz of no body be my side...
bcoz no body i can talk too...(face to face talking)
zhong zhi..i duno ur stuff..u duno my stuff.....
haiz...

6 days...
stil hav 6 days...
i really can't wait le...
msia,my dearest friends,all msia stuff---I'M COMING ^_^

i do really hope i can enjoy my msia vacation...

i do really hope u all free to hang out with me...

i do really hope...

wendy...

we go to watch narnia together ^_^

sure very fun de ^_^

yeah!!!^_^

2008-05-17T06:20:00.002+08:00

17.05.08...
stil hav 12 days...
2 week more...

after back from msia...
need to tranning...
need to test...
need to work...
all things come together...
pressure...
haiz...

a gal...
a tenager...
need to hav so much pressure...
wendy...
gambadek...
u can do it...
aza aza fighting
stil hav 12 days...
we can go to hav fun le
so wait for 12 more day la ^_^

see u lo ^_^

2008-05-13T00:01:00.002+08:00

today is 12.05.08
stil hav 17 days
2 weeks+
ah~~~
happy ah ^_^

yeasteday is mothers day
but ntg to do too...
bro wille and sis doris came(thx for help)
den go to makan...
after tat go home le...
mothers day finish like tat...
haiz...
usa!!!boring ahhhhhhhhhhhh

msia...
i miss u ^_^
after 17days...
i wil back le ^_^
yeah!!!!!

2008-05-11T10:00:00.000+08:00

today is mother's day
wish all mother happy mother's day ^_^

this few day...
really tired...
all part od body feel painful...
feel yao suan bei tong...
18 years old look like 81 years old...

2 week++
i wil go back msia le
yes!!! ^_^
happy ^_^
hope to meet my lovely friends ^_^

this 3 week de msia trip...
hope i can enjoy ^_^

Lastly:
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHER ^_^

2008-05-08T00:18:00.003+08:00

21 days more
hehe...

ntg to blog...
just hav a fun things...
tat's countdown
hehe...

day by day passed...
everyday life like this...
usa life boring ahhhhhhhh
haiz...
sudah nak become crazy...

wendy
u can do it
gambadek oh ^_^

2008-05-06T10:52:00.002+08:00

23 days more
yeah!!!

just back from work...
tired...
tomorrow still need to work 8 hr jobs...
ah~~~jiu ming ah~~~
haiz...
everybody also hav preesure...
me hav
wendy hav
derrick hav
my best friends hav
haiz...
this call real life...

anyway..
be strong
always happy
tat is de point for me now ^_^

wendy
u can do it
aza aza fighting ^_^

2008-05-05T10:35:00.003+08:00

today--monday is my daugther 1st exam day...
duno weather she can face it or not...
this few day few week she face too much things le...
wendy,hope u ok..
hope u can face it ^_^
gambadek oh ^_^

24 days more...
i do really miss msia now...
i miss u all...
including food,friends,weather,clothers,daugther...
miss all...

feel ntg to do...
boring...
me boring...i think he also boring ba...
and wendy is fan...
haiz...
real life really make me feel sick!!!!!!!

wendy..
i duno wat i can do..
i hope u ok
i hope u happy always
tk care urself
this coming june i wil teman u
ever u can't go out...
i wil let u be a naugth gal for 1 day ^_^
let u enjoy some fun
let u happy ^_^
if can i wil bring ur ex papa come too
i think if he hav beside us..the qi fen wil more happy ^_^
ok ma ^_^
promise me..giv urself rest...
dun think so much ^_^

derrick..
u wil become like ur friends ^_^
gambadek ^_^
and same like wendy..tk more rest!!!!!!
dun force urself too much too
aza aza fighting lo ^_^

wendy,derrick..
i wil always support u all ^_^

HAPPY ALWAYS!!!!!!

^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^

^__^__^__^__^__^__^__^__^__^

2008-05-04T11:40:00.005+08:00

msia trip...
25 days more !!!
hehe...
yeah~~~

today when i go to my uncle house...
damn happy when i know it (secret)...
yappi~~~

rest cukup..
sleep cukup..
but y i feel..very tired...
and feel painful...
i'm just 18++...
but feel like 80++...
swt......

this msia vacation..
i shall,must enjoy it!!!!!!
msia...
25 days more...
msia,my dearest daugther..i miss u all oh ^_^
wait me ^_^
i'm come back ^_^
hehe...

2008-05-02T10:06:00.002+08:00

offday...
but chu le sit in front of pc...
usa live...
usa live really very busy...

love...
i choose to let go...
yi qian shun qi zhi ran ^_^
i wan be strong ^_^
i wil let it go nutare...
this is de best way for me now...
and maybe is for him too...
all go by luck..yuan fen ba...
yua lao ye ye...
i xiang wo de ai qing jia gei ni le..^_^

auntie...
u r my auntie..u r my granduncle grandaunt,uncle,anut...
y u all wan to lie with us...
y u all wan to lie with us..ba wo meng pian dao mei gou...
wo zheng de hen hou hui dao mei gou...
wei sheng me ni meng jiu zhi xiang zhi ji ah...

now...
my only things wan to do is...
work hard..get more money...
return all de money...
den..i freedom le...
not only me...
is my whole family...
i wil remember wat u all hav done on us
I WON'T FORGET IT!!!!!!

luck god...
hope u bao you me...
gd luck all de time...
thx le ^_^

2008-04-30T10:05:00.002+08:00

tired...
really tired...
b4 go to work alrd start feel not well...
go to work for 8 hour...
actually 8hrs is very tired...
last min sherry(my maneger)call me stay for 1 more hrs...
really tired...
but bcoz of money...
i need to tahan 1 more hr...
i need to tahan with my not well body...
8 hrs + 1 overtime..=9 hrs......

after arrived house alrd pensan...
open blog...
more emo...
feel sad...
feel angry...
i told him to leave comment for me...
but at de last..he didn't leave for me!!!!!!
really dun1 wat i can say now...

feel not well..plus..after hav a look at blog...
really.......
i hav no idea...
shall i feel happy???
or shall i feel sad???
or shall i feel ntg?????????
wat shall i feel now!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-29T10:54:00.003+08:00

HURT!!!
REALLY GET HURT AGAIN!!!
i know wat he mean...
but when i heart it..saw it...
it's really hurt me again...
my tears came out automatik...
and.. can't stop...

i really is a bad gal...
is me hurt him first...
but i stil wan to catch his heart...
i stil yi lai him all de time...
i really bad...

why...
why!!!
lao tian ye...
why u wan let me cry again!!!!!!
i promise myself...
won't cry again for this sweet memory...
why i wil cry again...
why...
i wan be strong...
ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
_(T_T)_....

how can i make myself happy...
teach me,hao ma...
wat shall i do...
i totally duno le...

love...
can let feller happy...
love...
can let feller hav a sweet memory...
love...
can let feller get hurt all de time...
love ...
can let feller feel sad all de time...
love...
u can let feller happy,sad...
u really let human emo all de time...

2008-04-29T01:49:00.002+08:00

boring day...
really boring...
actually ntg to blog...
just feel boring...

he didn't online...
wendy didn't online...
nobody can chat with...
ntg to do...
or maybe i shall study my tech book...
but...
when i saw de book... @_@
lazy to study...
bcoz english not gd...
so every word also need to check....
ah~~~~~

hate it...
hate all de thing...
hate myself...
hate my life...
hate my lazy...
hate it...
really hate it!!!!!!

wat shall i do...
i hav no idea...
really no idea...
haiz.....

2008-04-28T10:27:00.003+08:00

...
boring...
really boring...
i'm just a tenager gal...
but my life..like shit....
chu le working..ntg to do...
i hate usa...
i hate it...

4 week more...
4 week!!!i wil go back to my country...
feel happy...
feel sad...
i hav no idea about my mood...
sometime is really feel happy but sometime won't...

did i will enjoy my vacation at malaysia...
without some1..did i really will enjoy it???...
nobody wil know...
i duno wat i wan to blogging...
i hav no idea now...
just feel hard...
just feel pressure...
just feel sad...
just feel like everything also is bad...

i duno wat i'm thinking now...
no idea......

2008-04-26T10:46:00.004+08:00

i say some1 didn't blogging
and
some1 say me didn't blogging...
haha...
it's really funny...
shui ran..we both game over le
but we still is friends

when i tell his cousin about this...
he look like very suprise...
i just wondering...
y game over le jiu can't be friends ne???
@_@!!!!!!

truelly...
i'm enjoy de relationship tat we hav now...
de reason y i enjoy is my mom won't keep looking at me...
shui ran we can't flirt,sweet talk,plying,or love tat last time we hav...
but de friends love i still can get from him...
thx...
i duno weather he enjoy or not...
but the only things i hope is..he enjoy too...

i know love de shang kou won't so easy get well...
ever he told me i didn't hurt him...
i also very sorry to him...
i'm glad tat i meet him in my life...
i'm glad tat i hav de love gave from him...
i'm glad de we r couple b4...
shui ran now is friends...
i also glad tat we stil is friends...
not just friends..is best friends---知己
thx,lao tian ye ^_^
thx,derrick ^_^
thx,wendy too ^_^
thx for everything u all done for me ^_^
muax ^_^

...
pain...
really pain...
haiz...
y gal must exper. tat feeling de...
haiz....
i really tak suka de feeling...
y u wan come to visit me ne...
come visit is fine...
if u didn't come i terbalik worry it...
but dun give me "gift"ma...
ur gift let me feel hard...
haiz...

last time when u came visit...
he stil buli me...
now...
pass de just let it go...
like wendy say de...
let it go...
i hope we all happy forever ^_^
shui ran brk le...
but the gift tat i wan give u...
hope u wil like it...
and de gift u give...
i wil very apperciate it ^_^
i wil keep it for my whole life...
bcoz it's my momery......
happy always ^_^

2008-04-25T00:58:00.002+08:00

唱情歌的人 东来东往
爱到尽头覆水难收
谁让我欢喜让我忧
前尘往事云烟般流走
吻别在无人的街头
爱我的人我爱的人
谁还在为爱继续等
夜已深留一盏孤灯
别在夜里数伤痕

唱情歌的人别唱的那么认真
别唱得多情人都丢了魂
一句离别划过了悲伤的黄昏
只留下寂寞比那沙洲冷
唱情歌的人别唱得那么深沉
别问我为什么会爱别人
一杯忘情水忘记了爱过多少人
谢谢你的爱陪我到来生

爱到尽头覆水难收
谁让我欢喜让我忧
前尘往事云烟般流走
吻别在无人的街头
爱我的人我爱的人
谁还在为爱继续等
夜已深留一盏孤灯
别在夜里数伤痕

唱情歌的人别唱的那么认真
别唱得多情人都丢了魂
一句离别划过了悲伤的黄昏
只留下寂寞比那沙洲冷
唱情歌的人别唱得那么深沉
别问我为什么会爱别人
一杯忘情水忘记了爱过多少人
谢谢你的爱陪我到来生

唱情歌的人别唱的那么认真
别唱得多情人都丢了魂
一句离别划过了悲伤的黄昏
只留下寂寞比那沙洲冷
唱情歌的人别唱得那么深沉
别问我为什么会爱别人
一杯忘情水忘记了爱过多少人
谢谢你的爱陪我到来生

2008-04-25T00:20:00.002+08:00

香水有毒 胡杨林
我曾经爱过这样一个男人
他说我是世上最美的女人
我为他保留着那一份天真
关上爱别人的门
也是这个被我深爱的男人
把我变成世上最笨的女人
他说的每句话我都会当真
他说最爱我的唇
我的要求并不高
待我像从前一样好
可是有一天你说了同样的话
把别人拥入怀抱
你身上有她的香水味
是我鼻子犯的罪
不该嗅到她的美
擦掉一切陪你睡
你身上有她的香水味
是你赐给的自卑
你要的爱太完美
我永远都学不会

香水有毒 杨蔓&雨天
(女)我曾经爱过这样一个男人
他说我是世上最美的女人
我为他保留着那一份天真
关上爱别人的门
也是这个被我深爱的男人
把我变成世上最笨的女人
他说的每句话我都会当真
他说最爱我的唇
(男)你的要求并不高
待你像从前一样好
(女)可是有一天你说了同样的话
(合)把别人拥入怀抱
(男)我身上有她的香水味
(女)是我鼻子犯的罪
(男)不该嗅到她的美
(女)檫掉一切陪你睡
(男)我身上有她的香水味
(女)是你赐给的自卑
(男)我要的爱太完美
(合)你(我)永远都学不会

2008-04-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

披着羊皮的狼
我小心翼翼的接近
怕你在梦中惊醒
我只是想轻轻的吻吻你你别担心
我知道想要和你在一起并不容易
我们来自不同的天和地
你总是感觉和我一起是漫无边际阴冷的恐惧
我真的好爱你我愿意改变自己
我愿意为你流浪在戈壁
只求你不要拒绝不要离别
不要给我风雪
我真的好爱你我愿意改变自己
我愿意为你背负一身羊皮
只求你让我靠近
让我爱你相偎相依

我确定我就是那一只披着羊皮的狼
而你是我的猎物是我嘴里的羔羊
我抛却同伴独自流浪
就是不愿别人把你分享
我确定这一辈子都会在你身旁
带着火热的心随你到任何地方
你让我痴让我狂
爱你的嚎叫还在山谷回荡

我确定你就是我心中如花的羔羊
你是我的天使是我的梦想
我搂你在怀里装进我的身体
让你我的血液交融在一起
你确定看到我为你披上那温柔的羊皮
是一个男人无法表露脆弱的感情
我有多爱你就有多少柔情
我相信这柔情定能感动天地

2008-04-24T01:47:00.002+08:00

itch...
very itch...
_(T_T)_...

today we both chatting like very jiang yin...
haiz...
miss last time our chatting...
anyway...
stil hope to continue like last time...
happy chhating...

feel headache...
tak cukup tidur...
last night sleep at sofa...
can't sleep well...
plus headache until my eye pain...
hope get well soon...
later stil hav work....

anyway...
thx for wendy...
help me solve my prom...
and thx derrick too ^_^
love u all ^_^

2008-04-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What have you realised recently?
what have i realised recently...life is very boring...

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
first kiss...i gave to my dearest parent... ^_^

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
every place that have in Earth

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
i hope i can enjoy my life... ^_^

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
i seen it before...is pretty ^_^

6. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
lose myself ...maybe ^_^

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
first..huan qing my aunt...den....no idea le.....

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
ya!!!why???

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
gentleman
respert women
sayang me

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
erm.. be authentic

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
duno...

12. What is the one thing you cannot live without?
myself of coz... ^_^

13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point it out for me ^_^

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
no idea now...

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
maybe...hehe... ^_^

16. If your house burned down, what is the ONE thing you’d save from your room?
erm...duno ler...

17. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
haha....many ler...

18. Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
duno...

19.If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take with you?
erm...my blog buddies also not enough for 11...haha....

20.???XXX???XXX???XXX???XXX???XXX???XXX???XXX???XXX???XXX???XXX???
.................................................................

Tags:
1.derrick
2wendy
3.yen yen
4.lei yan
5.yvonne
6.XXX
7.XXX
8.everyone whose read my blog ^_^

2008-04-22T22:53:00.003+08:00

STUPID INSECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate u hate u hate u
ahh~~~
y bite me again and again la!!!!!!
pretty de hand also let u bite until become ugly hand le...
very sad...
ahh~~~ _(T_T)_...

itch..
very itch ahhh
when apply medicine..
feel hot...
my hand,my neck,my leg....
all!!!!!!
all bite by u!!!!!!
U!!!STUPID INSECT!!!!!!
HATE U AHHHHHH
_(T_T)_......

my dad and mom say throw my matters...
finally..today throw le...
tonight sleep sofa...
haiz...kesian....
but good then bite by tat stupid insect!!!!!!
H'NG!!!!!!

finally...
we chat le...
i'm glad tat we still friends...
i'm glad tat we still can chat like tat
shui ran gameover le..
but our gan qing still very good...
i'm so happy...
thx lao tian ye
he is a gentleman
i'm glad tat he ok
thx lao tian ye...
_(^_^)_

2008-04-21T21:52:00.002+08:00

2 day le...
say gd bye to him alrd 2 day le...
feel sad...
fee regret...
but i can't do anything...
bcoz of family promble...
like my daugther say...
u must not feel regret for wat u hav done...
i need to try it..or i shall say like tat...
i must do it...

haha...
2 day le...
i feel sad, hard,xin ku...
at the same time...
he also sad,hard,xin ku...
we both also feel same things...
but wat i hav done...
i shall follow it...
i shall follow wat i hav done...
tat is my life...

i go to see our blog...
it's really very sweet...
when i see...
i cry le...
tat's is de most best momery for me at my love life...
thx,derrick...
thx for everything u hav done for me
thx...

2008-04-20T02:45:00.002+08:00

...
long time didn't blogging le...
this few day fa sheng many things...
so bad...
i'm a bad gal...
i hurt some1 do really love me,sayang me...

maybe i choose gd bye with him is a gd decision...
bcoz of family promble...
i hav no choose now...
hope we both ok later...
cheng jing he shi...
we both very enjoy our life...
but now...
i hurt him...
haha...
i'm a bad gal...

this june...
i hope i wil be more ok...
lately...
derrick,i'm sorry.
sorry wat i hav choose,wat i hav done...
SORRY

2008-04-16T10:42:00.003+08:00

feel very xin ku now...
wat shall i do now???
i hear the song tat she send for me...
i think de things she hav do for me...
i think de things btw us...
i do really feel xin ku...
i hate this feeling...
ah~~~
wendy,wat shall i do....
i hav no idea now...
i do really become hu shi luan xiang le...
i hate myself...
i dun1 2 hurt anybody...
am i tai chong dong le???
am i choose de wrong way...
wat shall i do now???
shun qi zhi ran???
giv us a chn???
or tell her the true??????
ah~~~~~
MAN!!!!
wat shall i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate it!!!!!!!!!

da ben dan

dun ask me wat happen..

i won't tel u

i wil be ok

i promise u

just give me some space...

thx

dun even try to ask wendy or try to test me...

i'm serious with u...

dun ask anything from this blog

sorry and thank you

wendy

i do really need ur help

wat shall i do now???

i feel i'm a bad gal now...

not much feelling now...

_(T_T)_.....

2008-04-14T07:20:00.003+08:00

ah~~~
so happy
damn happy ^_^
finally see him le :b

today hav PC fair at kl
laogong buy le webcam,pendrive and 2 printer catridge
totally is RM212!!!!!
hoooo so mahal....
RM212...
boleh eat many thing buy many thing....
but anyway he need it ^_^

finally..
i see him le ^_^
i'm so luckly tat i'm de first feller to view his webcam
hehe...
this is my quan li
hehe ^_^
am i right,laogong :b

i'm happy too to know lei yan
she's do really a pretty gal
she's friendly too ^_^

dear,

i do really damn happy to see u

love u so much ^_^
muax

2008-04-12T10:52:00.002+08:00

"my mind was thinking of you all the time"
it's really...
my mind was thinking u all de time...
"paiseh nia"
but i'm happy tat he also same with me :P
really very happy
i hav not feel this b4
i hav not feel i miss him,him miss me too
i feel i'm so xi fu ^_^
thx laogong,muax ^_^

i'm glad tat i hav him
i'm so luckly he is my bf ^_^
i'm so luckly tat i hav so nice,so gd,so prefect bf
i love him so much
and i so happy,so enjoy when we both "flirting"
hehe...
very few ppl wil hav "flirting"
i love watever he do
no matter is doing for me or his friends
i also love it ^_^

i'm so qi dai this sunday ^_^

hehe...

laogong u know wat i mean de

i finally can "see" u le

yeah!!!!!!

damn happy ^_^

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

become crazy le :P

so u must hav it at this sunday oh ^_^

muax muax muax~~~~~~

2008-04-10T10:51:00.002+08:00

WTH!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhh
wat happen with me today again!!!
ah~~~
why the customer so....
Geram ah!!!!!!

that is insurans promble y u ask me!!!!!!
i'm not the tech!!!
i'm not pharmisct!!!!
and i'm also not the Dr. too!!!!!
ur preseription not me write de!!!
is the Dr.!!!!!!

y u guys so suka cakap:
"it should be XXX tab not XX tab"
"i support get 90 day supply,y is just 30 day supply"
"the co-pay support is XX dollar,y so high now?"
"y the co-pay so high!!!i never pay so high!!!"
WTH!!!
ah~~~
>_
somemore so GERAM!!!
"it should be hav 6 more refill!!!the Dr. call in and additinal for 6 more refill and u guys didn't add it!!!and everytime i call for refill,u all will say no more refill!!!it's be alrd happen for 1 years!!!!!!"

Hate it
realy hate it!!!!
but i can't do anythings!!!!!!
that is a rules for all worker:
"CUSTOMER ALWAYS IS RIGHT"!!!!!!!!!!
AH~~~~~~~~~~~~ _(>_<)_

i dun wan let him know..
so i didn't tell him at the first time i chat with him...
bcoz i dun1 he worry or feel sad...
watever la!!!
i can tahan myself!!!
i dun1 add more fan niao to him!!!
christine moh!!!u can do it!!!!!!
Aza Aza Fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-09T10:16:00.002+08:00

有多少爱可以重来

常常责怪自己当初不应该

常常后悔没有把你留下来

为什么明明相爱

到最后还是要分开

是否我们总是

徘徊在心门之外

谁知道又和你相遇在人海

命运如此安排

总叫人无奈

这些年过得不好不坏

只是好像少了一个人存在

而我渐渐明白

你仍然是我不变的关怀

有多少爱可以重来

有多少人愿意等待

当懂得珍惜以后回来

却不知那份爱

会不会还在

有多少爱可以重来

有多少人值得等待

当爱情已经桑田沧海

是否还有勇气去爱

when i heard this song...

i think about wat he say this morning...

actually he didn't say anything wrong...

just i regrat tat i ask him tat question...

haiz...

if really which day at future...

we game over...

wat we both will do...

suddenly feel someday we really will pisah...

so scare...

but i'm sure he won't leave me without reason...

IF which day at future he wan say good bye with me

i wil let him go...

i won't same like last time...

jian chi dao di..dun1 let the other part go...

i alrd hav learing from tat time...

but wat i wish is he won't say good bye with me...

until now..i can't afford to lose him......

yue lao ye ye...

plz bao you wo...

i do really love him...

so dun let us pisah...

u r de 1 who arrange human love life...

plz le... ^_^

thx

2008-04-08T23:21:00.001+08:00

blur....
really blur for now....
feel wanna cry....
wat shall i do now....
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
_(T_T)_..................

shall i just let it shun qi zhi ran ma??????

2008-04-08T11:18:00.004+08:00

OMG!!!
Painful ahhhhhhh _(T_T)_
y my wei will feel pain de???'blur' @_@
i hav eat b4 go to work...
But why i feel pain de...
somebody help me plz
ahhhhhhhhh_(T_T)_
today don't know y feel like can't zhuang yi at my jobs...
i mean can't zhuang xin at my jobs or any customer
haiz...

y like tat de...
wat happen with me today???
really no idea 'blur' @_@
my wei alrd long time didn't pain le
but y today with start pain again
swt...
everytime pain is bcoz didn't eat
but i hav eat b4 go to work ah
haiz...god r u playing me???
chu le this...i still can't zhuang xin shang ban!!!!!!
haiz..
haiz...
haiz....

i didn't publish post it out at "our blog"
i just save it myself
i just know myself
hope he won't know it...
but i'm sure he won't know
bcoz he few to blogging at "our blog"
so here is de best place for me to blogging without publish post
and he won't know de place
hehe...:P

i scare he will see it and worry about me
so if i'm blog at "our blog"
then he won't see it
and won't worry about me too ^_^
IF i'm so unluckly...
he hav saw my blog
then also ntg at tat time
bcoz is alrd pass le ma ^_^
i'm alrd get wll at tat time too
haha ^_^

suddenly feel i'm so clever :P
da ben dan
am i clever :P
i love u
muax ^_^

2008-04-07T11:04:00.004+08:00

boring boring boring boring boring
so boring now....
lao gong didn't online...
(got thing to do---go out with friends ~_~!!!)
wendy hav things to do...
nobody teman me...
boring...
T.T...

almost still hav 6-7 week
i can go back le ^_^
can't wait the time pass now...
today go to buy some prasent for my best friends...
and i totally no idea wat shall i buy for his family...
~_~???
no idea at all...
clother???
food???
maybe food will more better...
but at the same time...
my mom start doubts me le...
hope she won't really get it...
i shall more becareful le...
haiz...

so confuse now...
i mean blur...
ntg to do...
then the mine start to thinks this thinks tat le...
thinks about my future...
thinks about our things...
thinks many many many things...
haiz...
let it shun qi zhi ran ba...
dun1 thinks so much...
made me feel presseure...
made me become more easy old...

but i hav something tat i thinks it
and hope continue to thinks it...
the things he flirt me...
the time we couple...
the sweetness tat we hav...
this june wat we shall do during tat limit time...
-shopping together?
-watching movie together?
-breakfast,lunch,dinner together?
-hold hand?
wan to know more??????no way :P
somemore elsa keep it secrect myself :P
we both know alrd enough...
bcoz is our stuff..hehe...:P
hope to visit he house too...
haiz......

my hand...

y after chou qiu will become like tat de???

so confuse...

y will hei qing until so serious de??? @_@

love u forever ^_^

thx,dear

although we just couple 1 month++

i feel very happy and xin fu

i very enjoy it

thx ^_^

muax

2008-04-06T11:09:00.002+08:00

lonely now...
he didn't hav time to teman me...
be alone now...
do really miss him...

i do really happy he flirt with me...
although i feel shy...
but it's really very sweet and happy...
feel like we really hav at our real life...

my hand more serious le...
tat hei qing become more...
y like this de???
my hold hand(the part tat i chou qiu)become hei qing le......
_(T_T)_

2008-04-05T10:45:00.002+08:00

argh!!!!!!
i can't tahan ahhhhh!!!!!!
y everyday also same de!!!!!!
i didn't do anything wrong!!!
y u always scolding me de!!!!!!
y u so suka do watever u like de!!!!!
today so tired!!!!!!
this week alrd work 3 day for 8 hour (tues,fri,sat)
stand whole day during work......
hope he beside me
and let him help me massage
ahhhhhhhhhh

so lucky...
i'm really so lucky..i hav my laogong
lucky i chat with him b4 i go to work...
if nottoday i'm sure ki mang zhang and moody...
he flirt me until i feel shy...
is really very shy
but...
very happy :P
thx dear...
i'm so glad he is my bf..
i'm so glad to meet him at the correct time!!!
thx..lao tian ye ^_^

when everytime i back from work
although i'm really tired or bad mood
i also hope to chat with him...
bcoz he is my another zhi zhu...
he is the one tat let me brave to walk my next step
he is the one tat i only can yi kao now...
ever my family also can't...
bcoz their hav their own promble to face...
sometime i decide to let my laogong know more better then let my bro or family know it...
bcoz feel hurt,pressure,sad,angry or watever just dun1 to let they know...
if i et my family know it
they will say the word tat i dun like or scolding me!!!

sometime i really feel wu zhu
i hope i can cry out
(cry watever i like)
but i can't...
bcoz my family beside me...
no matter is good or bad things for them...
i decide to keep it myself...
and cry be4 i sleep or bath...
(tat is the only way they won't know it)

i do really hope u r beside me...

i do really hope i can go back to msia enjoy my future not at usa...

i do really hope it!!!!!!

after back from msia...

my pressure sure will become more......

dear,

i miss u

i do really miss u_(T_T)_

.................................

2008-04-05T00:17:00.002+08:00

finally...

we return back le...

last night when i see his blog...

i cry le...

i feel touched...

i really can't lose him...

my hand...

after chou qiu

my hand become like tat le (hei qing)

so sad....

2008-04-03T10:44:00.003+08:00

god..

lao tian ye...

r u kidding with me...

today is my annivesary...

but the present tat u give me so "GOOD"....

~hav some promble btw us...

~not well (my hand)

~tk the blood test(so pain when de they chou my blood [T.T])

~waste US dollar 10(RM32.00) just for see doctor and medicine _(T_T)_

~need to eat medicine (OMG!!!!!!)

(1st day 6 tab, 2nd day 5 tab, 3th day 4 tab, 4th day 3 tab, 5th day 2 tab, 6th day 1 tab)

~need to work 8 hour

so funny...

my anniversary finish like tat...

i hope we can forget wat was happening at yearterday...

i suddenly feel scare to lose him...

i duno y i will feel it...

i really scare...

i'm regret to let u know it...

although u hav worry about me for the things (wj friends bro)

..............

i so regret to ask my mom to book appointment for me so suddenly...

if i can tahan few more day...

then i no need to tk de blood test...

no need feel hurt for the hand tat de nurse tk blood test...

won't get hei qing...swt

i no need to waste my money...

i no need to eat medicine...

hope tomorrow will become a good day for me...

hope tomorrow we will be ok...

thx......

2008-04-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

today---march 2 2008
is my anniversary day..
but i still need to work 8 hour!!!
2pm-10pm...alomak!!!!!!

thx for calling me to let me work early too...
if not i really duno wat shall i do...
yeasterday he hurt me...
although he not mean tat...
although he didn't say anything...
he keep saying sorry to me...
i hope i can forgive him...
but i need time to forget wat he say to me...
i just hope u forget it....

so funny...
are this my anniversary present???
lao tian ye...
r u jk with me???
r u playing me???
hahahahaha................